~You will be rewarded with a Great Honour~

Today, I am going to be graduating with a FIRST CLASS HONOURS!!! I still cannot believe it that I got a First Class grade.When I first saw it, I couldn’t quite process it that I got a 69.83% (which just barely made the first class grade) and the words next to it had First Class Honours. I just kept staring at it and shaking my head and I was really speechless. I never thought I would see those words on the screen. I was very certain that I would get a 2:1 because I calculated it over and over again (hoping it would be a 1st class) but finally accepting that I shouldn’t have even thought about getting a high grade and I am just happy with a 2.1. I already told a lot of my family members that I will get a B and soon I was confident that I would get a 2.1 (which secretly made me feel disappointed) but I moved on and just accepted it.

But those words on the screen when I saw it really brought tears to my eyes. The three years have been a huge adventure and like I said before, it wasn’t the easiest or the most fun thing you could do in your life (at least for me lol)  but I took it as a chance to prove myself that I can do it and grow. I didn’t really get high grades so I wasn’t looking for the top grade at all and most of the lecturers/ tutors warned us that not a lot of people will get firsts, so I didn’t have high hopes for myself. I cruised through the first year and in the second year and cruised even further in my third year, hoping for at least a 2.1. As a person who also missed out on things, I like to keep to myself and just jump hoping to land safely at least a metre from the edge and I treated university the same way. I did my best and if it wasn’t enough then I had to accept it and move on. I never shared my grades with anyone (unless they ask) but it always plays over and over again in my mind that I will never get a top grade and that always stayed with me until the results day. I still cannot believe I got a First Class Honour!

Getting this grade means so much to me for several reasons. Firstly, as I mentioned above, I am not the person who was highly praised for being academically smart and most of my grades especially A-Levels was so crap. I even had my doubts if I will even make it into university. But now, I have officially finished on a high note and I couldn’t have been more proud of myself. After all the stress, crying, headaches and sleepless nights, I can now breathe a sigh of relief that I am officially finished with all the essays and I am officially finishing with a First Class Honours. All those times, I stood people up and told them I was too busy to meet them (cause I was doing some last minute essays lol), the times I shut myself in my room and forced Vanessa to stay with me during some of my all-nighters so I would have some company, the times she was annoying and told me ‘It will be fine, Trisha’ and ‘You need to calm down!’ (which followed with a pillow to her face and on one occasion I dug my nails into her arms- I said I was sorry and you can barely see the scarring hahaha) and the times I handed every essay in thinking that it is the best I could and it is up to God what grade I get. I am one of those people who doubted herself constantly and worried so much about the future but always kept it to myself cause I don’t want to bother people. People would tell me it would be fine and I will nod my head (even if deep down I doubt it will be lol) and just get on with things. I never thought of the possibility of getting a first in anything and even though I would get excited when I got a first in some of my essays, I tell myself that I need to tone down the excitement so I won’t be disappointed. But damn, I did it and got an unexpected First Class Honours.

Another reason this means so much to me is that getting a high grade means I have ticked off one of the things on my bucket list, which is graduating from university and graduating with the highest grade possible. I know that going to university is a privilege as my parents always tell us, education is something people cannot take away from you and something you can never lose. So many people dream of going to university and they cannot afford to, so I feel so blessed that I stuck with it and finished university. I know this also means so much to my family that I am going to be graduating and there are not enough words I can write and say to thank them enough for quietly supporting me.

To my parents, thank you for always pushing me to be the best I could be and showering me with all the things I want and need. My parents work so hard every day to earn money to pay for all the necessities in life and they never wanted anything back except the promise from us to work hard and be a good person. Nothing can ever repay the unconditional love my parents have given me all my life but I hope now that I am going to be graduating, I can share with them the pride of this great accomplishment and a toast to the start of a fruitful future that they have always believed I would have.

To my sisters, firstly to Vanessa, you have always been annoying and we have had a lot of fights and I am sure there are still more to come. You have always made fun of me (mostly about my ex-boyfriends) but you have also brought some fun into my life by being my volunteer PA by bringing all my stuff for me up and down the stairs. Even if I injured you in the process or told you to be quiet, I always appreciated your encouraging words and your willingness to help me realise that I can do it! To Beatrice, thank you for helping me make peace with my inner child. With all the stress, I was always so serious about getting things done to prove that I have become an adult but with all the times spent with you, you have helped me take a break from being all grown up and watch cartoons and play childish games I have missed so much (plus it gave me a reason not to do my essays).

To all my aunts, uncles and cousins, you have always been there with supportive advice and compliments and even if we do not get to see or speak to each other as much as we would like, I know you are cheering me on with great enthusiasm. To all my Lolas, you have taken care of me since I was little and watched me grow into the person I am now. You have passed on your wisdom to my parents and they have passed it on to me and that has helped shaped my values on life and the power of prayer. I know we don’t go to church as much as we should but I also know that all of you always pray for me, for my health, my happiness and for my studies. I am so glad that both of our prayers have been answered and I am graduating with the highest honours. I will send some pictures over so I can share the blessings that God has given me. To my late Lolo Al and Lolo Ramon, I am so sad that you can’t see me graduate but I hope you are looking down on me and are very proud.

To all the few friends that stuck with me since childhood and until now, thank you so much for making me realise the power of friendship and I appreciate all the support you have given me (even though I didn’t get to meet up or hang out as much as you would have liked me to come and meet up). I will try and make an effort to come hang out more hahaha. To all the friends I met at university, you have been amazing and I am sure our paths will cross again and you will go on to greater things. To all the lecturers that taught me, you have opened my eyes and ears about social issues from theories that seemed like from many years ago (that I would have normally not even realised existed or wanted to read) but those lessons will stay with me in my mind and has not only made me more wiser but full of curiosity to discover more. 

After today I would be officially ending my university life with the highest grade and closing a huge chapter of my life. I cannot wait to see what the future has install for me. Let us toast to more undiscovered adventures that is now waiting to be discovered. 

Peace and Love, 

Trisha xo

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Countdown to Graduation

Tomorrow marks the day that Graduation tickets go on sale and I am so excited! I have been waiting for this day to come for ages and after three years, I am now finished with university and going to be graduating on October. That means I have a few more months for me to lose some more weight (a weight update will be coming real soon) and to decide what I should wear. I think graduation is one of those days where you can feel accomplished and to just breathe in all the achievements you have gained after a long time coming. I have already been looking at graduation dresses and looking up all the things needed for the ceremony  like booking my robe and how much tickets I need to buy (I still don’t know if Vanessa will be able to make it because she has school). I am so excited to be graduating and ending this adventure and looking forward to starting more undiscovered adventures. 

Cannot wait to see what happens next!

Determined

So many things have changed I have lost count
So many things to do and it’s starting to mount
Changes have come and doors start to open
The time has passed and so much has happened
Life has been hectic I had to run to keep up
Gotta keep on running until I reach the top
Now I am here there is no chance of slowing
Too much perseverance gotta keep on going!

A Different Kind of Independence

Why living at home with my family throughout university did not hinder my independence but gave me something much better

When I was deciding where to go for university there was a lot of talk about independence and moving away from home and basically living the “uni life” without the help of your parents and being more independent. A lot of my friends were excited to leave Cambridge and go somewhere else to explore a different surrounding and see how well they can cope being away from home. At one point, I also felt the need to go explore another place too and get away from home for a bit just to see what happens (I mean isn’t that what every college student wish for?)

In the middle of my final year of A-Levels, my mum announced that we are going to have another person in our family because she is pregnant. I was of course very happy for her and having another family member is an exciting thing so my parents thought that it would be a good idea for me to just stay in Cambridge and help them look after the baby. I wasn’t really sure what to say or think. When I told my friends that I might be staying in Cambridge for my university, it was definitely a bag of mixed reactions. Some of them understood that its the best thing to do as having a new member of the family is an adventure in itself but most of them had doubts about how my future will turn out. People would raise their eyebrows like I’m a crazy person and those who had some opinions to say expressed it loud and clear. Many people would tell me: “It’s your decision, but if it was me I wouldn’t stay”“Cambridge is a nice place but I’m going, to be honest, your university is not the best [compared to mine]”, “Why do you need to take care of the baby? It’s your parent’s child!” or “It’s your life, Trisha. You shouldn’t let your parents control what you should do”. Those doubts made me start to think of all the bad things that could happen if I did stay in Cambridge to study. But even though I was worried, my gut was telling me to stay, so I did.

After the three years at university and finally having time to reflect on the meaning of independence, I really believe I made the right decision for me. Some people might think that it was a forced decision and my parents made me stay but the reason I stayed wasn’t for them, it was for me. If I walked away and went to live in another city or town, I think I would have been very sad, especially after spending nearly 7 months with my baby sister, Bea. I got to know her and if I pictured myself somewhere else and not had gotten the chance to see her grow into the cheeky and cute 3-year-old she is now, I really would have regretted it. Many people still raise their eyebrows at me even now and still believe that I just let my parents “control” me. People cannot seem to process the fact that even if I chose to continue living with my family, my independence wasn’t hindered in any way. I was the one who chose my degree, I was the one who managed my finances and sorted out documents that were related to university and even though I was still eating and living under my parent’s roof, I learnt that independence is not about going on an adventure alone. Independence for me means that I get to choose the adventures I discover and I get to decide the people that become part of that adventure, in this case, my family. 

Being independent means recognising and learning skills that you need in life that you can use when life needs you to survive. Yes, independence also means not having to be reliant on other people like your family- but being with my family has made me stronger than ever as a person, a sister and a daughter. I got to make endless memories filled with arguments and laughter that going to another place would have taken away from me. It made me value my family more because no matter how much we fight or make fun of each other, we really love each other and nothing can replace family. So, I didn’t sacrifice independence and even if you think I did, you would be mistaken because I learnt that happiness comes from the simplest of things, from the people who are the closest to you, your family and that is something no one (no matter how you say you were right or I would have regretted it) can take away from me. 

Interview Clues

I am not an expert at interviews and to be honest if you are, you definitely have been to a lot in your life so far or you are just perfect. But since I have been to a few this last month I wanted to give my advice on how I dealt with my interviews and my top ten steps to getting some clues on the topic of interviews.


1. Research the Company
This is the first step that always comes up when I was searching for advice on how to deal with interviews. You need to go and research the company and just get some information from their website and look at the list of achievements they have accomplished as well as the future plans they have. This is not only beneficial for the person that will interview you in terms of finding out if you did some preparation before the interview but also a benefit for you. By researching the company’s policies and values, you are able to show the interviewer that you want to be part of their organisation as well as a deciding factor on whether their values will also meet your own.

2. Look at the job description
I know it could be boring to keep looking back at the job description especially since you probably spent a good long two days staring at it when completing your written application but I’m sure that looking at it some more will prepare you for the verbal interview. I spent a long time looking at it and breaking it down to the different sections they might test me on. I then proceeded to create an answer to each of the things they are looking for (including an example). This will prepare you with some answers to say during the interview, which I found really useful as I often become flustered and draw a blank. But having some answers ready to talk about it will help you create somewhat fluent sentences.

3. Look up possible interview questions
I found that looking up all the interview questions both general and specific will help you with creating effective answers ready for the interview. I spent a lot of time searching for all the possible questions they could ask me and writing answers for each of them. No one likes being interviewed and not knowing what to say is something I worried about especially after my first interview. I kept pausing and hesitating and biting the side of my mouth because I felt my answers weren’t strong enough (and tbh I just made it up on the spot), so having an answer ready to any interview question is a massive plus and will prevent any further stress to your interview day.

4.Pick a good outfit to wear
Nothing says I am ready than a polished outfit. Go and pick out a good outfit to wear that is well presentable and neat. You have just been invited for an interview and been researching so many questions and staring at your computer screen for two days straight. You need a break and what can be better than treating yourself to a shopping trip to buy some formal trousers or a nice blazer or even if you are really bad at timing and very last minute, go raid your closet and pick out all the pieces of clothing that are appropriate for an interview. If you feel good, then chances are you will feel ready (and a little gangster-may-care) for your interview.

5. Print out and folder ALL documents
I know printing can be difficult and time-consuming but hey making an extra effort to print out all the required documents to an interview which you could end up having is definitely worth it. Make sure you print out your CV, find your National Insurance paper, dig out your passport, birth certificate and even print out your application. Even if you think you might not need it, it might still help you in terms of revising over things you have previously said and showing your future employer that you can the right candidate they should be hiring. (plus it will make you look professional and organised if you carry a folder in lol). 

6. Plan your route
You need to plan your route and find out how you will get there at least a couple of days before your interview. Since I am not driving yet, I had to use the bus, so I needed to make sure that I withdrew money for bus fare and found out the right time to leave the house to get the right bus. If you are going to take a car, make sure you know if parking is available where you are going as well as any delays happening on the roads. This also goes for if you need to still walk further to arrive in the right room or department. The important thing is not to be late cause if you are late then it will make the interviewer question your punctuality.

7.More Research. 
Keep researching about the company and things they have done in the past and something you can relate to. Think of more examples that you can bring up when they ask you questions (this is really important if you haven’t had much experience like me). Look at reviews on the company and search on the internet for forums where people were interviewed for a similar position to yours. Look up more advice that other people have to calm your nerves or make you stand out (there are dozens on the internet that can help you, so just keep researching). This will also help when your mind goes blank to insert things you have learnt just to buy time to think of an answer. 

8. Get advice on the right interview etiquette
If you have to ask your family, your parents, grandparents, aunts, older siblings or join a forum, you need to know the proper etiquette and mannerisms interviewers are looking for. These are things such as making eye contact, staying polite and respectful throughout, displaying a sense of humour without laughing or trying to joke with the interviewer. To be honest, this step is just common sense but is still an important one to keep in mind and remember that how you behave with your family or friends is not the same way you should treat a random stranger that is interviewing you and will potentially give you a job.

9. Prepare everything the night before
This is a must if you know you are a last minute person and time-management isn’t your best skill. Go and prepare everything you need for the following day so to avoid making yourself panic more than you need to. Get all your documents printed and placed in a folder and even inside your bag. Put your keys, wallet and other essentials inside the bag as well. Iron and place your outfit on the closet handle ready for the following day. Make sure you brush through your hair, cut your nails and also shave any hair which they might notice (especially if you are a girl and will be wearing a dress, shave your armpits and legs and maybe your arms – if it is really hairy). 

10. Get a good night sleep
Finally, sleep. You need a great sleep ready for tomorrow. By getting a great sleep you will feel refreshed and will be as ready as you could ever be to go ace that interview. Just keep breathing and don’t panic. When you get there, go straight to the bathroom if you have time, so you can fix yourself and look proud in that mirror. Then go find the room (make sure you arrive at least 10 minutes before the time allotted) and knock on that door of opportunity. You can do this!


If you have any more advice for interviews or past experiences you would like to share, leave a comment in the section below.

Back at Blogging

Hi everyone!

I am now back at blogging after almost a month of resisting the urge to write articles/poems/stuff on here. I really missed blogging every day and hopefully, now that decisions have been made and life has settled a bit I can come back and carry on writing more stuff and the adventures I have been on (I have so much news to tell you, just wait and see). The summer is approaching even if it is raining and grey here in England (but that’s hardly a surprise) and there is so many things I have already done and about to do. The month off was definitely worth it and I am looking forward to a summer of more writing and exploring.

Stay tuned for all the posts I am going to make and I cannot wait to get you all up to speed on all the adventures I have discovered this past month and land of the unknown that is ready to be found!

Peace and Love xo

Trisha

Haunted by You

Every day I see you, it brings back all the memories
It makes me shiver and sigh, reminding me of the sorries
You seem too distant, so far away from me
Wanting me to act all fake so you can be free
No matter how many times I say to myself we are nothing anymore
I just love you too much that I start to cry, my tears start to pour
I just look from afar, maybe you’ll look my way
Maybe you’ll come over and sit and even stay
I wish we’d talk more often like we used to do back then and before
Keeping each other company and dreaming of that love has in store
But instead, you’re with her laughing and playing your endless game
You have forgotten all about me and yet right now I am the one to blame
Cause I remember everything from the beginning until the end
Even when you didn’t have a clue, even before you were my friend
I thought you were someone special, I think about you every night
Hoping we can be together again, wishing you had been Mr Right
But it’s never simple, it’s actually a difficult thing
How you treat me like I’m dirt while you play King
It’s complicated, hard, I just can’t cope
All I can do now is just pray and hope
For better, for good, for you
Even if it was not a dream come true
I want to tell you all the things I never got to say
How I wish you would always be beside me day by day
I wanted to make this all real
I wanted to show you how I truly feel
The ways you made me laugh and smile
The times we made everything worthwhile
The kiss in the rain and the made outs on the chair
The way you stroked and brushed my hair
The moments your hands keeps touching my skin
The feelings that screamed we are the ones who’ll win
I thought I was the one for you, that we will never part
The one who helped you mend your broken heart
I kept thinking I was gonna be your first and last
Turns out you after the years have gone, I am just your past
Maybe it is time to just give it all up and never try
At least, that way I wouldn’t have to hide my face and cry
I’m tired of wasting my time and my tears,
You promised to bring the happiness not the fears
I need to accept that this chapter is done
Farewell, I am on my way now, I am almost gone
I have nothing else to do but vanish from your sight
Nothing to do except fix my heart and go look for the light
I hope this is not goodbye so please don’t cry
Cause if you do, I’ll know that I’m the reason why…