A girl who decided to promise her life to Death
In twenty-four hours she’ll take her final breath
She needs someone to show her the light
To free her and hold her tight
She stares in the dark, swimming in red
If you don’t go now, she’ll soon be dead
She’s crying softly, here comes the rain
Death is knocking, she’s gonna go insane
Come to her and she might let you in
If you don’t, then Death will win!
*for World Suicide Awareness Day*
Tomorrow marks the day that Graduation tickets go on sale and I am so excited! I have been waiting for this day to come for ages and after three years, I am now finished with university and going to be graduating on October. That means I have a few more months for me to lose some more weight (a weight update will be coming real soon) and to decide what I should wear. I think graduation is one of those days where you can feel accomplished and to just breathe in all the achievements you have gained after a long time coming. I have already been looking at graduation dresses and looking up all the things needed for the ceremony like booking my robe and how much tickets I need to buy (I still don’t know if Vanessa will be able to make it because she has school). I am so excited to be graduating and ending this adventure and looking forward to starting more undiscovered adventures.
Cannot wait to see what happens next!
So many things have changed I have lost count
So many things to do and it’s starting to mount
Changes have come and doors start to open
The time has passed and so much has happened
Life has been hectic I had to run to keep up
Gotta keep on running until I reach the top
Now I am here there is no chance of slowing
Too much perseverance gotta keep on going!
Many years have passed and words have been said
Yet here we are standing the test of time instead
We stand face to face, invisible to the eye and screen in hand
We talk and it comes back to the phrase: ‘I hope you understand’
But you know what, I don’t think I do and maybe after this, I never will
We have been moving so fast but Mate its time to stand still
I asked you a harmless question and you asked one back
I had an explanation then you exploded with an attack
You began with how you did me good through all these years
Oh is that why my heart is breaking and my eyes fill with tears?
You accuse me of things I never gave you or every did
Sometimes, you make me feel like the girl that God forbid
You continue that my lack of presence means I don’t care
Just because I didn’t take the train or the money, well that’s not fair!
You said I hold you at a distance even when you are close enough to touch
Sorry I wasted my tears for two days straight, just because I missed you so much
Then you end the conversation by saying it’s nice for a couple to openly communicate
Four months have gone by and you choose to tell me this now, well Dude it’s too late
I am tired of disappointments and how we are running round and round
You keep on talking clever words but I no longer hear any sound
You missed so much whilst you were basking in your incredibility
You wanted me to be more visible in your life, how about invisibility?
Because I feel invisible and all I asked was a tag or a small post
I didn’t ask you for money or a train ticket, I’m so glad this ends with almost
I want to wish you good luck in your future and I’ll bow out and say farewell
If you had only listened, there are so many news I still had to say and tell
But I guess you’ll never know that I was about to start a job, actually two
If you could have only waited, I would be now planning my way to you
I never thought I would be the one to end it, I was the one who walked away
I have a feeling I will remember that rainy night and the following sunny day
And the saddest thing is that you made me believe that we are intertwined
But when I woke up, my heart felt lighter and my brain shrugged: “Never mind”.
Did you read that comment on your post?
From a random stranger from across the coast
They said you are a joke and look fake
Oh sorry, did they make a mistake?
Why did you delete it, the person is online
Wait did you block them, are you feeling fine?
Wow your blocked list is pretty full
Why do you look like a raging bull?
Sorry, did that offend you, well its true
Damn, you’re so immature, did you really block me too?
I’m not a social butterfly but where have you been?
Girl, please take your face out of that screen
You remove and delete posts you don’t want to see
So you can continue acting like a total wanna-bee
If you can’t take criticisms well tough for you
Now you are acting like you don’t have a clue
People will say things that you don’t like
Time to walk away and take a hike
Get some fresh air and just embrace
You cannot keep clicking the button: ERASE
Everyone has an opinion that will come to bite you back
Darling, don’t take this as a personal attack
Just listen to what I’m saying even if you won’t take it in
You keep acting like this and I guarantee you’ll never win
Listen carefully, I will say this nice and slow
Cause I know your blocking finger is ready to go
You have to remember people can say what they will
Girl, log off your account, walk away and CHILL!
Nothing feels so good when you are deleting a lot of spam emails and being able to scroll down to the bottom at a blink of an eye and right back to the top again. I thought now that university is over I need to do some clearing up in all my email inboxes as they are filled with so much junk that it is about time I let it breathe. There are also a lot of emails which I have been meaning to delete but just ended up forgetting about them lol. But now, I have been using my computer a lot, I thought it is about time that I cleared out some stuff I no longer need to make space for more emails from work and bills and things that “grown-ups” have to sort out and pay for.
Wish me luck!
How do you do it every single day?
A piece of your heart you have to give away
Pleasing everyone is not the best thing
Pleasing yourself has a nicer ring
In this world, we need more laughter and smiles
Nothing can compare to how the sun shines for miles
Every day you can make a change by living a positive life
Simply ignore the bad memories and moments of strife
So, you can think more about yourself, never less
…Don’t allow others to downplay your happiness!