Haunted by You

Every day I see you, it brings back all the memories
It makes me shiver and sigh, reminding me of the sorries
You seem too distant, so far away from me
Wanting me to act all fake so you can be free
No matter how many times I say to myself we are nothing anymore
I just love you too much that I start to cry, my tears start to pour
I just look from afar, maybe you’ll look my way
Maybe you’ll come over and sit and even stay
I wish we’d talk more often like we used to do back then and before
Keeping each other company and dreaming of that love has in store
But instead, you’re with her laughing and playing your endless game
You have forgotten all about me and yet right now I am the one to blame
Cause I remember everything from the beginning until the end
Even when you didn’t have a clue, even before you were my friend
I thought you were someone special, I think about you every night
Hoping we can be together again, wishing you had been Mr Right
But it’s never simple, it’s actually a difficult thing
How you treat me like I’m dirt while you play King
It’s complicated, hard, I just can’t cope
All I can do now is just pray and hope
For better, for good, for you
Even if it was not a dream come true
I want to tell you all the things I never got to say
How I wish you would always be beside me day by day
I wanted to make this all real
I wanted to show you how I truly feel
The ways you made me laugh and smile
The times we made everything worthwhile
The kiss in the rain and the made outs on the chair
The way you stroked and brushed my hair
The moments your hands keeps touching my skin
The feelings that screamed we are the ones who’ll win
I thought I was the one for you, that we will never part
The one who helped you mend your broken heart
I kept thinking I was gonna be your first and last
Turns out you after the years have gone, I am just your past
Maybe it is time to just give it all up and never try
At least, that way I wouldn’t have to hide my face and cry
I’m tired of wasting my time and my tears,
You promised to bring the happiness not the fears
I need to accept that this chapter is done
Farewell, I am on my way now, I am almost gone
I have nothing else to do but vanish from your sight
Nothing to do except fix my heart and go look for the light
I hope this is not goodbye so please don’t cry
Cause if you do, I’ll know that I’m the reason why…

Achillies

I’m not Zeus, I don’t have lightning bolts
I’m just a normal guy who has loads of faults
I’m not Hercules, who’s strong and a hero
I am more like Neville when he was a zero
I’m not Batman, no gadgets or a car
I’m just a broken dude with a Twix bar
I’m not Harry Potter- who defeated the Dark Lord
I’m just a terrified guy with a flat he can’t afford
I am not Ron W, with his girlfriend Hermione
I’m just here wishing… will she be-miney?
All I am is a boy who is too afraid to ask her if she would…
Make my dreams come true, pretty please, I don’t want to be rude
I am so scared that she asked ‘what’s the matter?’
I didn’t know how to reply so I just leant in and kissed her
It felt so good and I wish it would have lasted forever
I guess this means that we are now finally together
So, I may not be Batman, Zeus, Ron, Harry or even Hercules
I have weaknesses of failure and girls, my name is Achilles!

You did it, Mr Llama!!

Oh My Geoffery! After three years, you have just gone and finished your degree and going to graduate next month. Where did the time go? I am so proud of you, Hun. I know this will probably be really cheesy (but we like cheese) and filled with PDAs but I don’t care cause my awesome boyfriend is done with university. Woohoo! The last three years has been a total adventure filled with more random phrases and plenty of emotions. There were a lot of laughter and long conversations and some tears shed too. But despite everything, you just persevered and you have finally reached the end of your university journey.

I feel so proud of you and all the things you have achieved so far and I look forward to seeing you achieve even more wonderful things in the years to come. I am so glad I met you and got the courage to talk to you 4 years ago at the bus stop outside of Sixth Form. In the 4 years, I have gotten to know you, you have constantly been a positive influence and always willing to fill people’s life with happiness. You want to make people smile and you hate being part of conflict (something which has been tested several times during the three years of uni). The three years has been fairly difficult and you have expressed feeling upset or outcast but even then you did not let any of the negativity get to you and you made the best of all the worst situations. I admire your motivation to stay true to yourself and never let anyone belittle your views or close your mind up to the opinion of others. You went through a lot of emotions during all the years of your university journey but you have done so well to manage everything even it did require some extensions. I am so happy you can now celebrate and breathe away all the stress and just embrace the freedom of a university graduate (graduation next month), I am so excited for you.

Another thing that was tested was our relationship as we didn’t know how a long distance relationship was gonna play out as we both didn’t have a job so getting to see each other and hanging out was going to be difficult. For three years, we made do with calls, texts and Skype as our form of communication and there have been a few arguments about when will we get to meet up. I know it was frustrating and took a lot of patience before we got to see each other again on February 16 of this year lol. But I really thought it was worth it and even if it was a long time waiting, getting a few hours to spend with you was so magical. (so magical that I cried for two days after you left haha). Our relationship has gone through a lot of ups and downs, we have created new meanings for words and we have had our fights and random moments but all in all, I couldn’t be happier having you as part of my life, if not physically but mentally and emotionally. I hope to make more memories with you, my darling Llama King. I love you so much. No words can express how much I adore you and appreciate all the things we have experienced so far.

You are an amazing person/llama and I am so proud and happy of all your success stories so far and I am sure there will be plenty more now that you have ticked off getting a degree from your list. The world better be ready for Mr Llama, (soon-to-be) Philosophy, Politics and Ethics BA Hons Graduate to conquer the world as a musician/lawyer/teacher/pirate/gangsta fish/ whatever you chooses to do lol. So, I hope you enjoy your little break before and after graduation with your friends and family.

Go and show the rest of the world your swagtastic and chuggarific powers!

Gay or Straight: Is this the End?

I am tired of running after boys
Always ending up to be just their play toys
I always try to be positive every day
But would you be happy, if ALL your exes were Gay?
I went out with Tim, an awesome guy
Why did he turn out to be gay, why?
It was going so good, why did it have to be me?
Why did his ‘girlfriend’ have to be Lee?
Then there was Jim, a bad but fun guy
But why me, me oh my!
Now, here I am again with another boy
I am so filled with happiness and joy
This new guy’s called Kim
He first told me ‘Wow, you’re slim.’
And believe it or not, He is NOT Gay.
This has been such a great day
Finally, I found the perfect boyfriend
I really hope this will be the happy end
He is not Gay, He is Straight!
We went to the movies for our first date
He kisses real good, and damn he is fine
I’m so glad I can call him all mine
But I did find out something… and it’s making me re-think
Because when we went to his house, all his walls were pink!

Gay or Straight (Part 2)

Ruth met Jim, a very good lad
He is tough and kinda bad
Ruth loves her Bad-Boy Jim
Even if he can sometimes be dim
Jim is the coolest boy in town
All these other guys looks like clowns
He loves football and Ruth
But maybe he should tell the truth
One night they went to a pub
A party and dancing, type of club
Jim invited along his best friend
But we all know this is not the end
Jim was so hot on the dance floor
He was also drunk and wanted more
So Bad-Boy Jim did his thing
He shouted out loud ‘I’m the Gay King!’
Ruth was devasted once again
Why can’t just be like Ken?
Ruth felt really down
Is there one straight boy in this town?

Gay or Straight (Part 1)

Tim and Ruth kissing under a tree
A couple so sweet as can be
Holding hands with each other
Hiding away from her mother
Keeping her safe by his side
Honest and complete, totally nothing to hide
While she laid her head on his chest
She feel asleep and had a rest
Then came the trouble by the next tree
Tim found his ex and his best friend, Lee
They were eating each other’s face
And touching in ‘you don’t want to know’ place
The time has come, to tell the truth
He kissed her goodbye, ‘love ya, Ruth’
Ruth woke up and followed him
She is madly in love with Tim
Tim went over to see his friend
But this is not where it ends…

Tim shouted at Lee for dating a girl
This started causing a total whirl
Lee hugged Tim and said ‘I’m sorry’
Then they kissed, should we be worried?
Ruth was shocked, she ran away
She can’t believe Tim is gay
She and his ex, left at half eight
Walking down the path called Straight.

Always Love

I’m not perfect, don’t you mind
I’m not a winner, don’t go blind
I work hard and try my best
I do that and God does the rest
I think, write and draw
I am human not made of straw
I have soul and heart
I didn’t get the head start
They are angry, they never chill
They should start now or they never will
They criticise and continually speak
But they do not know, I’m not weak
I know life can be hard and it is short
Knock walls down and go build a fort
Just stand freely and let them see you cry
If they don’t want you. bid them goodbye
Cross the road, change paths and run
You can choose to be free and just have fun
If they can’t accept you for who you are
Ignore them, walk away, they will never get far
Just remember to have faith and hope
You will make it, you can cope
Just pray and hold the dove
Just remember to always love