Becoming Friends

It’s been a whole year since we broke apart
You left me standing alone with a broken heart
I told myself its the end, goodbye
I don’t like you and you know why
You went away and I stayed behind
Picking up the memories I can find
One day, you came back with a new lady
She got you back on your feet and crazy
You love her, I see it in your eyes
If you end up marrying her, it won’t be a surprise
You rubbed it in my face and held her tight
You took away the happiness and the light
But then you left her and took me aside to talk
Finally, after a long time, we slowed down, we walked
You want to be friends and dreaming of something more
This is the new beginning so go open that door.

It’s Over

You told me lies and useless words
You trapped my wings like a helpless bird
You looked at me as if you care
I wanted you to stop, just don’t you dare
But like always, you don’t listen to me
You walk, speak, taste and feel, but not see
See that you’re hurting my heart
That this relationship is tearing apart
You wanted me, you said you wanted me so bad
Thanks for making me lose the happiness and bring back the sad
We kissed and hugged and planned everything until we die
But instead, you left, just left me to cry
Why did I trust you when I knew you were wrong
Why did I give in, when I was starting to be strong
Why do I feel foolish, like it was my fault, my mistake
It was never me, just hold on and hit the brake
It wasn’t me that got my hopes up
It wasn’t my choice to carry on or stop
It wasn’t me that let go of the dart
It wasn’t me that broke my heart
It was you that made me cry
It was you who acted like the right guy
It was you, who tore me to pieces
It was you, tricking me with your hugs and kisses
You can’t fool me again, we are definitely through
Because you are not that guy before, I don’t love you!

I’ll come with you

Boy likes Girl, Girl likes Boy too
Moments away from saying ‘I love you’
Boy has flowers and chocolate
Ready to declare his love at eight
Girl is getting ready for Boy to come
She knows he is the right one
On the way to her house, Boy saw a guy
He was there in an alleyway about to die
The Boy ran to help him but then….
Boy went down, hand on his heart
This was supposed to be the start
He looked up and saw Girl’s Ex and the guy alive
This was a trick, a kind of bribe

The doorbell rang and Girl opened it, she frowned
She looked around and then she felt like she drowned
Boy was lying on the ground
Knife to his heart, no sound
She cried over him and saw a note
It was from Boy, the last he wrote

Dear my love,
I have loved you since we became friends
But I really hope we can be more, it wouldn’t end
I have always wanted to say these three words
The three words which will make our world
If I died today,
I would want to say…
You are the one for me, my dream come true
Girl, I Love You!

Boy
X

Girl looked at him and took the knife from his heart
Girl loves him too, Girl cannot let them be apart

Finding True Love

He looked at me for a minute or two
I’m obsessed with him but he hasn’t got a clue
I need him so badly, he needs to be mine
He is so cute and extremely fine
He just broke up with his leading lady
They went out now he’s gone crazy
to get her back in his arms
Needs to bring his cool and his charms
But really she doesn’t care one bit
She already has her eyes on a boy so fit
Why does he still run after this bitch?
He needs to be free from that wicked witch
Why can’t he see there are other girls here?
Right in front of him, oh so near
He doesn’t need her anymore
Time to open another door
But why can’t he see me?
Staring at him like a bee
There is still time for him and me to meet
Just need to stand and find our feet
Once we are finally together
Everything will be happily ever after.

Him versus Him

He has brown hair, He has blond
He acts like Indianna Jones, He’s no James Bond
He’s Irish, He’s part Greek
He’s a Pscyho, He’s a Geek
He wears black, He wears what he can find
He broke my heart, He’s out of his mind
He left me for another girl, He never actually  liked me
He saw me and want me back, He thought I was free
He stood his ground, didn’t move, He did the exact same
He hates you and you hate him, but both of you are to blame
He broke me and my heart, He left me and tore me apart
You both acted like I was your long lost soulmate
Tough luck, boys, both of you are too late
I will just wait here for my number one guy
Leave you both hanging and wondering why
You had the perfect solution, you won’t be missed
Take a look at yourselves, Jerks, you pissed?

Friend?

Friends? That’s what you said you want to be
You said you want to be friends with me
So, we’re cool now, is that right?
So, we’re okay, there’s no need to fight?
Good, I like how this sounds so far.
Hey, did you get a new car?
So, what do you want to talk about?
I’m sure you don’t want to go out
So, we’re amigos, pals, mates
I really want to go on a date
Wow! You walked away…great talk!
Can I have a ride? Oh never mind… I’ll walk
Hey, you said you’ll help me with my dance
I’d like to chat again when you have the chance
Not today? Well tomorrow maybe, just us together?
Oh, you weren’t listening, I’ll take that as never.
Hey, what’s going on? Oh, you’re with “your Queen”
Well just wanted to check, “How you been?”

This is getting stupid, when will it end?
I’m starting to think if you’re even my friend.

The Three Years Ends

After three years of stress and a lot of headaches, my time at university is done. I do not have to do any more lectures. No more participating or not participating in seminars. No more early, afternoon or really dark rides on the bus. No more pressing the button for the automatic doors so I can go in or out of uni. No more tapping in at every lesson. No more getting bombarded by people wanting me to do surveys or giving out leaflets that I will throw in the bin anyway. No more university.

I finished my last day yesterday with a quick review session for one of my modules. It only lasted 30 minutes which seemed pointless but at least I could stretch my legs a bit and walk around university for the last time. I’m going, to be honest there really isn’t much to miss at university. I know that for some people university is the time to go down pubs or go clubbing to socialize. University is the place where you will find out who you are and what you want in life. By going to university, you will become more independent because you are away from your parents. University will be that place you will miss when it all ends. But all those things were never true for me. I prefer to stay at home watching cartoons and binge-watch my shows than going drinking out and living the club life. I lived with my parents for the three years whilst I was university and as far as I can tell it made me independent in ways I didn’t think it could. I did house chores (except cooking but I promise I’ll learn after my essays, Mum and Dad) and my parents also let me budget my student finances and I was even able to help a bit with a few things needed for the house. Staying at home also made me value family more which I did not value as much when I was still a teenager. I know a lot of people were telling me that I shouldn’t stay at home because it will ruin my time at university but if I did,  I believe I would have regretted it, especially with my little sister. Looking after her has been the best time to come out of the university experience and the reason I loved coming back home to my family. My family has been a big support system for me and even though we have fought and shouted at each other several times these three years, we have also made more funny and loving memories that I will cherish forever.

My experience at university was pretty good but I don’t think I will miss it as much as others make it out to be. I will probably miss the friends I’ve made and the some of the teachers which have impacted my life in terms of improving me as a person or helping me gain skills which I can use more in life but the experience…not so much. It was filled with stress, I cried a lot, threw a few things, dug my nails into stuff, swore and raised my middle finger at those elements that tried to rain on my semi-constructed parade. I didn’t really join any societies or made an impact there but I was able to do the one thing which I came to do when I told myself that university is the way. I was able to stick it through to the end and make my family and friends proud that soon I will be done with all the essays (just one more to do) and the three years of university will officially come to an end.

As for university helping me find who I am and what I want to do in life… I’ll keep you posted on that one when I know for sure. Now it’s time to finish the last ever university essay and once that’s all submitted I need to go searching for the next adventure to explore. So for now, thank you university friends and (some) teachers, it’s been fun knowing you and make sure you keep in touch.

See you at Graduation. 🎓