CHILL

Did you read that comment on your post?
From a random stranger from across the coast
They said you are a joke and look fake
Oh sorry, did they make a mistake?
Why did you delete it, the person is online
Wait did you block them, are you feeling fine?
Wow your blocked list is pretty full
Why do you look like a raging bull?
Sorry, did that offend you, well its true
Damn, you’re so immature, did you really block me too?
I’m not a social butterfly but where have you been?
Girl, please take your face out of that screen
You remove and delete posts you don’t want to see
So you can continue acting like a total wanna-bee
If you can’t take criticisms well tough for you
Now you are acting like you don’t have a clue
People will say things that you don’t like
Time to walk away and take a hike
Get some fresh air and just embrace
You cannot keep clicking the button: ERASE
Everyone has an opinion that will come to bite you back
Darling, don’t take this as a personal attack
Just listen to what I’m saying even if you won’t take it in
You keep acting like this and I guarantee you’ll never win
Listen carefully, I will say this nice and slow
Cause I know your blocking finger is ready to go
You have to remember people can say what they will
Girl, log off your account, walk away and CHILL!

New Facebook Profile

Oh, I just went and created a new Facebook profile. I am not really sure why I did it but I am back on Facebook after a month. I think I needed to just have a break from it and get my life sorted in order to feel happy to be using Facebook again. If you didn’t get to read my post about leaving Facebook, I basically said that I haven’t really been feeling the Facebook vibe and I just felt that it was a distraction from a lot of things (like going to find a job) and would often result in me getting caught up on the never ending news feed of peoples’ lives that I shouldn’t care about but I do lol. Anyways, I decided I want back in but instead of continuing with my old Facebook account I wanted to start a new one because I just wanted to mark a new chapter in my life (which is finishing university and finding a job). 

I have begun taking down some pictures from my old account and deleting them (I downloaded them though so it’s okay) as well as taking care of my new account in terms of privacy settings and not sharing too much. I have just been enjoying staring at my news feed and not seeing anyone’s life but my own (but I hope a few people does find me so I can have a few friends lol). I’m feeling really positive right now and I hope this Facebook account makes me better and more wonderful memories than the previous one. 

….If not, I’m sure I can always de-activate it!

Facebook- Logging off

I have decided to log off my Facebook account. I feel that I need to take a break from it and just move away from Facebook for a while. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately and I just need to an escape away from it all. Earlier this year I did a Facebook Detox for Lent and honestly, after that experience, I felt so carefree and relieved that I’m not bombarded with articles and adverts I didn’t give a damn about or things which were making me just feel sad when it shouldn’t be. Facebook has given me a platform to express myself and share my life but right now I feel like I need to step away and have some self-reflection. I shared so many good memories on there as well as several bad ones but as years went by it has all become mediocre and I just feel negative towards it now. Signing out from Facebook, FB Messenger and deleting all the apps from my devices will hopefully help me find more time to have a long think and just give me some space.

Right now, I won’t be deactivating it or deleting it yet, just gonna log it off. I think this decision is the best for me and even if I am not on Facebook, I will still have Snapchat, Twitter and Instagram. So if you want to chat, call me up or some news appeared on Facebook that you think I need to know, I will still be on the other social media networks, just not Facebook. A part of me will miss Facebook but the majority of me will soon forget about it. This is a goodbye to Facebook for now and you never know I might decide to log back on just to see how everyone is doing or maybe even start a new account. Also,  if you end up reading this, please know that it is not directed at anyone or was due to anything major happening because there is not anything that has happened or anyone that has forced me to do this. This is all my personal decision and something I have been meaning to do for ages. 

I want to thank everyone for making the Facebook experience memorable and just being part of many of my memories so far. See you around everyone!

If you do want to contact me, here are all my other social media details:

Twitter: @GangstaNoob007
Instagram: @trishaanne96
Snapchat: doryknowwhoiam

Now its… Bye Facebook Bye!

Online Representation

Hey online world this is me.
Who I am do you really have to you see?
I would stare down this lens and just talk
Well why don’t we go for a imaginary walk?
The place that the camera will never see
A place known as my investigation territory
You want to know what goes
You see people can put on a front and play a role
I do it all the sometimes to gain control *
I can be that girl who smiles at the camera and acts all happy
Laugh and smile even through I’m grumpy
Even though I’m sad I just shrug and say ok
So they’d think I’m totes fine and they will just go away!
I’d shut the world out and go to the person I wanna be

That girl who is almost perfection, crafted to the tee
She’d have a stunning and made up face
Looking beautiful and elegant, full of grace
I would be a star in the worlds eyes
A boys dream girl, the winning prize

Or that smart girl who knows every answer
She can balance her studies and being a hard worker
She is always on top, she gets the first place trophy
She’s also an animal lover, charity volunteer and very holy

Or I could be the Harry Potter fanatic, a total obsession
Every Harry Potter merchandise in my possession
I’d end up married to Rupert Grint and have a cat called Otter
Maybe I’ll even get a tattoo on my back of Harry Potter

Or I could be that mean girl, scrolling and judging
You want me gone well darling I’m not budging.
Let me tell you what is wrong with you and your face
You are so ugly, you’re mother thinks you’re a disgrace
Girl no one likes you, haven’t you noticed everyone tweeting
Btw just to let you know that your so called bf is cheating

So you see I can be anyone. I wanna be behind the screen
Flicking through, deleting and editing footage that will never be seen
Backstage I rule the world cause no will know it’s me
Secrets, fears, emotion are locked with a key
But if you really want to know about the girl on the other side
She’s ready to show people who she is…. Nowhere else to hide

She’s the girl who smiles and laughs for no apart reason
She looks exactly the same every single day of every season
She should really focus on her education and getting a job
But she can’t find the time right now and sometimes a lazy flop
She’s never said a mean thing about anyone, online or for real
Well apart from time to time when she wants to express how she feels
So there you go, comment, subscribe and check out the description
Im going to sleep now, that was my online self representation

There are a lot of things you’d know from a person if you give them a chance
You don’t have to tell them to go edit them selves and turn up the ‘enhance’
Maybe if we stopped investigating a person from what we see in the screen
Anyway who would listen to a girl who looks at a twisted reflection?
People are so bended these days do they know their self representation?

Teachings from my Facebook Detox

Today marks the end of Lent and I will be going back on Facebook again. On March 05, I wrote a post about giving up Facebook for Lent 2017 (Facebook Detox) and now the 40 days are over. I am going to be honest, I have never given anything up for Lent before but I wanted to give up something that I knew would take a lot to give up. I know some people are always giving up social media for Lent but personally giving up Facebook for me meant giving up being tempted surrounding myself with other people’s lives and forgetting to go live my own. I am constantly clicking on Facebook every morning and every night and checking constantly to get updates on other people, so giving it up was gonna be difficult. Spending 40 days without Facebook has taught me so many things.

I realized I didn’t need it as much as I thought at first. The act of not clicking on it and checking it, allowed me to see how great life is clicking on other things. I managed to spend time clicking on my emails and writing my essays plus I was able to help my little sister learn some educational apps on the tablet ready for her school in the Fall. I also spent more time sharing my poems and my thoughts on here with all you lovely people. 

I also found that Facebook was always a distraction even when I wasn’t posting on it because I would spend hours scrolling through and getting involved in some people’s lives and problems because I will forever be worrying about it or thinking about it all the time instead of thinking about my problems. But having Facebook at the back of my devices and having the inability to worry and focus on people’s lives really made a difference to how I looked at my life.  I was able to think more about who I am and share aspects of my life that matters to me without having to consider if other people judged me or not. 

Facebook was often the app I turned to because I can see gossip and arguments on there which I found interesting or articles that applied to me the most but at the same time I often found myself on there because I’m just bored. So, without Facebook, I saw the world from my point of view because I was not looking at other people’s lives as a past time and that way I wasn’t affected by anything related to others. Also, I found that I don’t need to look at Facebook everyday, so its okay to sign off and leave it alone once in a while. I mean, it did not make a difference to my life whatsoever and in fact I think it made my life better and brighter because I was so focused on myself that I didn’t have time or the care to look at what other people have or what others think of me. 

Giving up Facebook made me think about what I want in my life and made me realize how important the sacrifice that Jesus gave. Now, I am not going to claim that I have been reformed in some way or that this has made me a better Christian than I was before because I don’t think that would be true because I know that giving up Facebook for Lent is nothing compared to what Jesus had to do in the desert for 40 days and 40 nights. But I just wanted to share what this experience has taught me because I want to bring some positive outlook on life and how we don’t need social media every single day and we do not need to be surrounded by other people’s lives because the only life worth living is our own. 

Have A Great Day Everyone!

Leave a comment below on what you gave up for Lent and what it has taught you or just some comments on what you thought of this blog post. 

Download Darla

Hi its Download Darla, think before you click
Think it through carefully no need to be quick.
Im here to stop your computer from getting ill
Keep it running smoothly like a treadmill
The number one enemy is Mr Virus, he likes to attack
We need to find a way to make him go and never come back
Mr Virus likes to transform and disguise himself into different styles
Like your emails, computer games and music files
Mr Virus will make your computer slow, buffer, shut down
So lets make your computer happy and healthy, no need to frown
Mr Virus will infect your computer like germs gives you a cold
But listen to me about dowloading safety and lets get him paroled
First things first, install an anti-virus software and let it scan
It will track Mr Virus and his path of destruction and give him a ban
If you receive an email attchment from someone you do not know
Even if looks like from your friend, dont click on it , its Mr Virus , just let it go.
Once your anti-virus software has finished scanning, dont hestitate
Tell a trusted adult , delete the email and then click update
Once you update, Mr Virus will simply disappear and cry
Sorry Mr Virus, you have been eliminated ,Goodbye

Two Sides Of Me

Welcome to my World
Hey this is me | & I’m da person she really want 2 b
Ermmmm says who? | oh darling u do
I don’t think so, you’re mistaken| at least I hav an opinion & not fakin
I’m not fake, I just don’t like to say it out loud| well speak up & act like ur proud
I am proud thank you very much| not really u seem out of touch
Well tell me why are you better| ha! Jst take a look at ur sweater!

Online Trisha
Darling jst move ovr, make way 4 da Queen
Open ur eyes widr wher hav u been?
I’m da voice in ur head dat makes u insane
Likes 2 play now & again w/ ur little brain
I hav multiple charactrs diffrnt & bettr versions of u
So fierce, so loud, so funny & a guy’s dream com true
So while u scroll I’m silently judgin
No matter wat u do I’m not budgin

Well Why are you interfering with me| cuz dear I kno wat u really want 2 b
Well care to enlighten me some more| u desperately like 2 b da 1 people adore
That’s not bad, Can’t a girl want some love| yea & 2 get dat u hav 2 b abov
Above? what exactly are you implying?| oh ur naivety is somethin I’m not buyin

Real Trisha
Well let me tell you this I’m not always nice
I can be mean and that can come as a surprise
Don’t mess with me I like things just the way they are
Present time is where I’m happy not near not far
So just go away ,bite your tongue and zip your lips
By the way, I think your fake, Ms photoshopped hips
You may be queen of my head but you can’t rule me
I’m the real thing you’re a big headed wanna be

Now what to you say to that| brava dear turns out ur not so flat
Well now will you go away?| Sorry I’m not done 4 da day
What else do you wanna do?| make my dreams com true
Yea like what?| mov ovr & let me take dat!

Online Trisha
Let’s change ur look & make u pretty
Cut da desperation & dat stinking pity
Fix ur face & make u thinnr
U can bcom da all round winnr
Den we can chat up sevral guys on virtual worlds
Woe dem w/ ur looks & som flirty words
Den while he’s at work we can spy on ur ‘friends’
Laugh at deir mistakes & secretly poke fun at deir ‘trends’
U c u will always win as long as I’m in charge
Cuz I think bold bright & jst xtra large
Plus no 1 online will kno it’s u
& even if dey find out, wat r dey gonna do?
So darling jst admit dat I’m right
Spread ur wings & take flight
Like I said leave it all up 2 me
Right u ready… 123!

Don’t u look like a dream com true?| OMG I’m just like you!
Xactly. Excpt I’m da bettr twin| but I just can’t let you win
But darlin I already hav, game ovr| no it’s not better take cover

Real Trisha
You see you may judge and take a stand
But your thoughts don’t even reach my hand
Your mood is stored behind a filter
Huh? Hun, why do you look so bitter?
Your style and looks really highlights your physique
To bad it’s been done, turns out your not unique
Your insults are barely noticed, plus they are pretty old
Your opinions aren’t valid, dearie you’ve been told
From now on just stay in my head but stay cute
Keep babbling and mumbling, it’s okay you’re on mute
You think you’ve won well go look at you’r reflection
I hope you’re okay with this extra large rejection
Cause you’re behind a screen, just another online version
You’ve got to remember I’m the real person
Awwwwwww sorry… Gotta go… Please don’t shout
Not does it matter, see you soon, I’m….signing out!


This poem was inspired by a project I did for my first year at Uni where we had to create a form of self representation and I chose to create one for an online representation of the conflict decision to which side of you, you would like to portray to the online world. This was an early idea i had and it didn’t quite work out in the end but since I wrote the poem already I thought I might as well share it on here.