I have decided to log off my Facebook account. I feel that I need to take a break from it and just move away from Facebook for a while. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately and I just need to an escape away from it all. Earlier this year I did a Facebook Detox for Lent and honestly, after that experience, I felt so carefree and relieved that I’m not bombarded with articles and adverts I didn’t give a damn about or things which were making me just feel sad when it shouldn’t be. Facebook has given me a platform to express myself and share my life but right now I feel like I need to step away and have some self-reflection. I shared so many good memories on there as well as several bad ones but as years went by it has all become mediocre and I just feel negative towards it now. Signing out from Facebook, FB Messenger and deleting all the apps from my devices will hopefully help me find more time to have a long think and just give me some space.
Right now, I won’t be deactivating it or deleting it yet, just gonna log it off. I think this decision is the best for me and even if I am not on Facebook, I will still have Snapchat, Twitter and Instagram. So if you want to chat, call me up or some news appeared on Facebook that you think I need to know, I will still be on the other social media networks, just not Facebook. A part of me will miss Facebook but the majority of me will soon forget about it. This is a goodbye to Facebook for now and you never know I might decide to log back on just to see how everyone is doing or maybe even start a new account. Also, if you end up reading this, please know that it is not directed at anyone or was due to anything major happening because there is not anything that has happened or anyone that has forced me to do this. This is all my personal decision and something I have been meaning to do for ages.
I want to thank everyone for making the Facebook experience memorable and just being part of many of my memories so far. See you around everyone!
If you do want to contact me, here are all my other social media details:
Now its… Bye Facebook Bye!
People do things for no apparent reason
Even if the sun is up, the rain pouring or its changing season
But don’t blame yourself for their mistake
Even if your life is at stake
Never give in to their torture and chaos
Remember its not yours, but their lost
They’re the one who hurt you, real bad
There is no need for you to be sad
When they left you all by yourself
They were just thinking about themselves
They will never care for you
So why should you care about them too?
So the next time, they come begging for your hand
Just ignore them, throw back the sand
If they don’t care then leave them behind
There are better things you can find
You don’t need them to be there anymore
But if you do, ask yourself, what do you need them for?
After what you’ve been through
You now know dreams don’t come true
There isn’t honesty or trust
Love was replaced by lust
Families broken because of what someone said
They can’t forgive or even forgot instead
Mother has always to be right
Father tries to break the fight
The youngest have to make noise
The eldest have to make the choice
Then there is you whose have been told to shut her mouth
To keep quiet because everyone has had enough
You’re always put to the test
The one who is put second-best
So you ran and ran and then tripped
A piece of your heart was ripped
Until he put it back together
The boy who told you forever
He said love is all you needed
You beg him to stay you pleaded
He left everyone else before
You’re here again slammed in the face by a door
They don’t know that you would never stop crying
Praying to God to say you just want to be dying
To never have to wake up and see anyone
Finally wake up somewhere fun
But even if it’s the end and all is well
You have always known that you belong in hell.
I recently did the yearbook for graduation which suggests that the days are counting down and soon I will only be able to look at this book filled with pictures, words and memories of my time at university. In this yearbook, we had to fill in a section asking about our time at university and describing our favourite moments and who influenced us the most. I didn’t really know what angle I wanted to fill it in- should it be a funny, light hearted section or should I dig within the darkest soul and unleash the shade? I thought maybe I should write from the heart but in the end I thought it was a mixture of those things.
One question did make me think though. “Where do you see yourself in five years time?”. I have never had to answer this question before, people would normally ask me what I would want to do in the future, there was never a specific number. They could have asked what would you want to be in a year’s time or in 10 years time, tell us how life is?. Why does it have to be five? When I saw that question, I was stuck in thinking what I would write, the truth, a prediction or an over elaborated lie? I mean, if I told the truth which is I don’t really know, ask me again when five years time. If I tell a lie, it would be I will be sitting on a yacht in the middle of my expensive resort while my husband cooks me food and we are just loving life and never have to work, yup it is so fake. But if I predicted my life in five years then I guess that’s a middling between the truth and edging on a lie. So, I just asked my heart and head what I could see my life and I found myself writing: ‘In five years time, I would be well into my future dream career, managing my life both financially and socially. I would have liked to have gone on at least one holiday with my family where I paid for it and I thought it would be nice to be engaged or planning a wedding by then’. I think that answer is the most honest I could give to myself and anyone who will read It.
I know I can’t predict the future or that these plans and aspirations in five years time would probably not come true the way I see it in my head or might not even happen at all, but I think it’s nice to have something to look back on and compare how my life as a 25/26 years old compares to when I was 20/21 years old and just a university graduate about to explore the undiscovered adventures that life will throw at her.
I can’t wait to see what the future me will or will not be doing and in a way that’s an exciting journey to figure out.
I was naughty, I got detention
I was so sad, I went into depression
I am now broke, its the recession
I’m so stressed, give me your attention
I’m completely lost, give me direction
I’m at the bottom, no motivation
I need a home, no accommodation
The world is filled with discrimination
Violence and racism in every nation
Tell me how we got into this situation?
Maybe we should blame evolution
Better yet, lets blame natural selection
But people, we destroyed God’s creation
We should welcome the flood
Let’s all drink Christ’s blood
Let volcanoes erupt and earth quake
Let’s do good for goodness sake
God placed humans to look after and stay
Pray have faith and keep loving…
For its nearly Judgement Day!
Realise is about the destruction of the world. I wrote this poem towards the end of high school because I just found the world to be filled with conflict and fighting and violence and inequality. I thought that writing this poem would make a difference and change the world in some way. Unfortunately, it does not work that way. I am saddened that conflict and inequality still exists now and people are still afraid to change their mindset or be open to other’s views of the world. This poem was written 5 years ago and nothing seems to have changed.