Injured Middle Finger

I don’t know if it is bad luck or I am just suddenly accidental prone but in the last three days, I have gotten injuries on my middle finger on my left hand. The first injury was due to a paper cut that tore the skin off right under my nail and the other injury was from some scissors after I was cutting off a zip lock lol and then the first injury was made even worse when I got another paper cut on top of it. I do not know why this is happening right now, especially since the other day I was discussing getting my nail done with my sister. But now, my middle finger is hurting and could probably use some pampering. I haven’t had any injuries for a long time apart from small scratches. I hope they heal really soon so I can start thinking what to do with my hands. 

On the plus side, if someone asks about it (and I don’t like them lol) I can shamelessly give them the middle finger! 

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Haunted by You

Every day I see you, it brings back all the memories
It makes me shiver and sigh, reminding me of the sorries
You seem too distant, so far away from me
Wanting me to act all fake so you can be free
No matter how many times I say to myself we are nothing anymore
I just love you too much that I start to cry, my tears start to pour
I just look from afar, maybe you’ll look my way
Maybe you’ll come over and sit and even stay
I wish we’d talk more often like we used to do back then and before
Keeping each other company and dreaming of that love has in store
But instead, you’re with her laughing and playing your endless game
You have forgotten all about me and yet right now I am the one to blame
Cause I remember everything from the beginning until the end
Even when you didn’t have a clue, even before you were my friend
I thought you were someone special, I think about you every night
Hoping we can be together again, wishing you had been Mr Right
But it’s never simple, it’s actually a difficult thing
How you treat me like I’m dirt while you play King
It’s complicated, hard, I just can’t cope
All I can do now is just pray and hope
For better, for good, for you
Even if it was not a dream come true
I want to tell you all the things I never got to say
How I wish you would always be beside me day by day
I wanted to make this all real
I wanted to show you how I truly feel
The ways you made me laugh and smile
The times we made everything worthwhile
The kiss in the rain and the made outs on the chair
The way you stroked and brushed my hair
The moments your hands keeps touching my skin
The feelings that screamed we are the ones who’ll win
I thought I was the one for you, that we will never part
The one who helped you mend your broken heart
I kept thinking I was gonna be your first and last
Turns out you after the years have gone, I am just your past
Maybe it is time to just give it all up and never try
At least, that way I wouldn’t have to hide my face and cry
I’m tired of wasting my time and my tears,
You promised to bring the happiness not the fears
I need to accept that this chapter is done
Farewell, I am on my way now, I am almost gone
I have nothing else to do but vanish from your sight
Nothing to do except fix my heart and go look for the light
I hope this is not goodbye so please don’t cry
Cause if you do, I’ll know that I’m the reason why…

Sorry

I’m no angel, I make mistakes
But just slow down and hit the brakes
I accidentally did you wrong
You make me cry but I tried to be strong
The feelings inside me has to come out
Before more secrets start to sprout
Please just listen, okay…here we go
Let’s just take it nice and slow
When it ended, it was over sooner than I thought
By the way, thanks for the happiness you brought
Then I went up to you and did what I thought was right
But we didn’t see eye-to-eye, someone just turned off the light
So let me tell you why I did the thing that split our world into two
I want you to know I did not want to run or hide from you
Hear me out,  I gave it back for a reason
So please, don’t punish me with treason
I wanted to be the girl of your dreams
Unfortunately, I’m not as it seems
I gave it back because you need to find the girl you desire
Your whole wide world and your greatest admirer
So now you know, I hope you can forgive
Please, just listen and believe
I want you to know I’m not your dream come true
And I know deep down, I had no chance of loving you.

The Plain Honesty

You were holding my hand because you care
Keeping me safe, stroking my hair
You looked deep in my eyes then looked away
Like you wanted to speak, something you needed to say
You smiled at me and pulled me in for a hug
You felt so warm, you felt so snug
You told me that you fell in love
With an angel sent from the heavens above
You moved in closer and gave me a kiss
It was slow and gentle, a tender bliss
But the truth is, we’re not meant to be
This si all real, not our fantasy
So, even though, I want to be with you
I’m sorry but there is still so much to do
You got angry, ran away and just left me
I was right all along, we were never meant to be.

Realise

I was naughty, I got detention
I was so sad, I went into depression
I am now broke, its the recession
I’m so stressed, give me your attention
I’m completely lost, give me direction
I’m at the bottom, no motivation
I need a home, no accommodation
The world is filled with discrimination
Violence and racism in every nation
Tell me how we got into this situation?
Maybe we should blame evolution
Better yet, lets blame natural selection
But people, we destroyed God’s creation
We should welcome the flood
Let’s all drink Christ’s blood
Let volcanoes erupt and earth quake
Let’s do good for goodness sake
God placed humans to look after and stay
Pray have faith and keep loving…
For its nearly Judgement Day!


Realise is about the destruction of the world. I wrote this poem towards the end of high school because I just found the world to be filled with conflict and fighting and violence and inequality. I thought that writing this poem would make a difference and change the world in some way. Unfortunately, it does not work that way. I am saddened that conflict and inequality still exists now and people are still afraid to change their mindset or be open to other’s views of the world. This poem was written 5 years ago and nothing seems to have changed.