Haunted by You

Every day I see you, it brings back all the memories
It makes me shiver and sigh, reminding me of the sorries
You seem too distant, so far away from me
Wanting me to act all fake so you can be free
No matter how many times I say to myself we are nothing anymore
I just love you too much that I start to cry, my tears start to pour
I just look from afar, maybe you’ll look my way
Maybe you’ll come over and sit and even stay
I wish we’d talk more often like we used to do back then and before
Keeping each other company and dreaming of that love has in store
But instead, you’re with her laughing and playing your endless game
You have forgotten all about me and yet right now I am the one to blame
Cause I remember everything from the beginning until the end
Even when you didn’t have a clue, even before you were my friend
I thought you were someone special, I think about you every night
Hoping we can be together again, wishing you had been Mr Right
But it’s never simple, it’s actually a difficult thing
How you treat me like I’m dirt while you play King
It’s complicated, hard, I just can’t cope
All I can do now is just pray and hope
For better, for good, for you
Even if it was not a dream come true
I want to tell you all the things I never got to say
How I wish you would always be beside me day by day
I wanted to make this all real
I wanted to show you how I truly feel
The ways you made me laugh and smile
The times we made everything worthwhile
The kiss in the rain and the made outs on the chair
The way you stroked and brushed my hair
The moments your hands keeps touching my skin
The feelings that screamed we are the ones who’ll win
I thought I was the one for you, that we will never part
The one who helped you mend your broken heart
I kept thinking I was gonna be your first and last
Turns out you after the years have gone, I am just your past
Maybe it is time to just give it all up and never try
At least, that way I wouldn’t have to hide my face and cry
I’m tired of wasting my time and my tears,
You promised to bring the happiness not the fears
I need to accept that this chapter is done
Farewell, I am on my way now, I am almost gone
I have nothing else to do but vanish from your sight
Nothing to do except fix my heart and go look for the light
I hope this is not goodbye so please don’t cry
Cause if you do, I’ll know that I’m the reason why…

What happens now?

I’m not pretty, I’m not perfect, I’m nothing to anyone
They always go away, always disappearing, gone
They never even stay for too long
Never a year, never forever, it has gone wrong
First, they win me with words and sorts and stuff
Filling me with sweet things and playful fluff
Then, without realising, slowly I break into million ones
They pretend they betray, they hate and they pounce
No more love, no more peace, just hatred and guilt
The scales start to become unbalanced, it starts to tilt
It moves towards you, so you are the one who wins
Hurting me all the time at the drop of a pin
And when I’m broken, you make me miss your absence
You force me to sit and listen to the silence
To emphasise just how badly I’ll need you
And the fact that you won’t miss me too
Leaving me, Leaving me, Leaving me to cry
Leaving me and walking away, leaving me wonder why?

Love Never Dies

When someone leaves because they can’t stay
When someone is gone cause they have to go away
Just because they are gone, it doesn’t mean you should be sad
All you need to remember is the times you both had
You dream about them and wish they are there
When you look around, he seems to be everywhere
No matter how you try, he is not coming, gone forever
He is far away and you cannot see him, never
You feel lost, you feel like you want to cry
You feel like falling, why did he have to die?
But don’t waste your tears on something you can’t get
Sometimes it is easier if you just forget
Remember there are still many more doors you have to open
Don’t dwell on something that’s already happened
There are more opportunities, this is not the end
Forever you will cherish, the time you have spent
You need to keep him in your heart
Breathe and reach for a new start
The noise and pain might be really loud
Someday, you will make him really proud.

DEDICATED TO MY LATE GRANDFATHER/LOLO AL.
Died 2010.

Truth About Love

Through thick and thin, you were there for me
Today, Tomorrow, Forever, Eternity
The love you give is here to stay
The feelings we have won’t go away
The happiness and delight will always be here
Because you are at my side so near
The love we possess inside is true
Not once did I stop loving you
Then all of a sudden, it went wrong
You changed my world, I didn’t belong
You turned your face away from me
You didn’t look back, just left and flee
Now everything is different between us two
The love, light, life, went and flew
Everything feels lost, it is all gone
The emotions and connections are done
But I still have some things I want to say
So please listen, please don’t go away
Everything that has happened is so insane
Now, because of you, I’m afraid to love again
The promises and commitments weren’t real
You lied, took my heart to lock away and seal
Now, I feel like a victim of a crime
The pain hurts so much, I lost track of time
All of this things needs to stop
If it doesn’t, I will fall and drop
You want to become a hero and fly
You become a villain, we left me to die.

It’s Over

You told me lies and useless words
You trapped my wings like a helpless bird
You looked at me as if you care
I wanted you to stop, just don’t you dare
But like always, you don’t listen to me
You walk, speak, taste and feel, but not see
See that you’re hurting my heart
That this relationship is tearing apart
You wanted me, you said you wanted me so bad
Thanks for making me lose the happiness and bring back the sad
We kissed and hugged and planned everything until we die
But instead, you left, just left me to cry
Why did I trust you when I knew you were wrong
Why did I give in, when I was starting to be strong
Why do I feel foolish, like it was my fault, my mistake
It was never me, just hold on and hit the brake
It wasn’t me that got my hopes up
It wasn’t my choice to carry on or stop
It wasn’t me that let go of the dart
It wasn’t me that broke my heart
It was you that made me cry
It was you who acted like the right guy
It was you, who tore me to pieces
It was you, tricking me with your hugs and kisses
You can’t fool me again, we are definitely through
Because you are not that guy before, I don’t love you!

Ignore

It’s hard to see you so far away
You’re never close and not here to stay
You’re always laughing and joking with her
Acting all fake like a total stranger
You always run when I am near
Sucking away the happiness and replacing it with fear
I know I hurt you real bad
But not hearing your voice makes me sad
You are really angry, I get the message
But I need you, I just can’t manage
I didn’t mean no harm to you
I was stupid, did not have a clue
But then you didn’t like me anymore
Leaving me and slamming the door
You hate me but I want to be your friend
The actions and words are just all pretend.
So, please forgive me, I need you now
I do not want to take the last bow
So, please have the heart and see
By ignoring, you are only killing me.

I thought you loved me

When you saw in the park
Just before the coming dark
You took me aside and said ‘It’s fine’
You also said ‘You’ll always be mine’
You took me home, down the street
It was cold, but I feel your heat
You looked me in the eyes
All I saw was paradise
You kissed me by the front door
As you pulled away, I wanted more
But we just stood there for a minute or two
You then whispered the words ‘I love you’
The next day, you weren’t there
I saw you kiss a girl so fair
I stood on the spot, I wanted to flee
You are not a friend but my worst enemy.