Clearing My Emails

Nothing feels so good when you are deleting a lot of spam emails and being able to scroll down to the bottom at a blink of an eye and right back to the top again. I thought now that university is over I need to do some clearing up in all my email inboxes as they are filled with so much junk that it is about time I let it breathe. There are also a lot of emails which I have been meaning to delete but just ended up forgetting about them lol. But now, I have been using my computer a lot, I thought it is about time that I cleared out some stuff I no longer need to make space for more emails from work and bills and things that “grown-ups” have to sort out and pay for.

Wish me luck! 

Easy Peasy

My little sister is going to nursery in September and as a way of helping her learn some skills and educational lessons, her school has been sending my parents some games to play to help her learn. They recently went for a parents evening at her school to meet the teachers and discuss things we need to do to help her be prepared for the school year. The school is partnered with an app called Easy Peasy which has some weekly games that parents can play with their child. My mum was playing with Bea the other day and she is now obsessed with playing some of the activities.

She really liked the Stepping Stones game, where we had to cut several shapes (4 circles, 4 squares and 4 triangles) and placed a ball on the other side of the room. The shapes were spread out all over the floor (or river) and she had to step on 1 specific shape only in order to retrieve the ball. That was a good game to play as it helped her with her shape recognition (plus tired her out a bit lol). She also liked the Selfie game in which we all took selfies which depict different emotions. She then had to identify that emotion and describe that when she feels that emotion and why does she feel that way. The second part of the game she doesn’t have a full concept yet but she really enjoyed taking selfies on Snapchat and making faces. The last game she really enjoyed this week was the Patience game. The game was supposed to be done with strawberries but we used chocolate fingers instead (cause we didn’t have any strawberries). We had to hold the chocolate finger for one minute. It is to test your patience and has been researched to indicate that children who can wait for their food for at least one minute (no matter how tempting it is to lick or take a bite) are likely to become more successful in life. Bea did really well (plus we got to eat some chocolate fingers although I am on a diet lol). 

There were only a few games available but I think it’s a good idea to also have some home-learning aid to help boost their skills and get them more familiar with educational lessons they could be studying in school. We are all excited for the next set of games next week! 

The Best of Three Years

The three years that I have done at university will soon be officially over as the results come in and graduation is just three months away. I would say that I will miss it but to be honest there really isn’t much to miss except a few people who really made a difference in my life. That is probably a little harsh but it is the truth and they did say that the truth will set you free. While I have been waiting for the official results to come in from the academic board, I have been occupying myself with looking for jobs and spending some time with my family. I thought that the results would still be far away when I was looking towards the future all the way in May and now it is only a few more days before I find out what the undergraduate degree grade I will be receiving in October. Everyone has been so excited and all my relatives have been really supportive of all the things I have achieved in the last three years. This has made me really positive too and that is why I printed out all my essays that are 70% (A grades) and above so I have a physical memory of the great things I have gained whilst at university. 

I never thought I would get any A’s when I first started university after doing my A-Levels. My time at Sixth Form was okay but if I were to choose if I would rather do another five years of secondary school or even 2 more years at university then I would have gladly agreed. My grades at A-Levels wasn’t the best compared to other people and I just barely made it through to the second year and when it all finished I was so convinced and paranoid that I won’t pass my A-Levels (so paranoid that I started looking at other options and sorting out all the things that are needed for clearance). But when I woke up on results day, my first and second choice university have accepted me and even though my results were crap, I have made it into university. Phew!

Three years on from that, I am now sitting in my living room and typing this blog post and finally breathing a sigh of relief. University was one of the most stressful, headache-causing and nerve-wracking thing I have ever done so far in my life. The essays were an effort to get through, I had a lot of practical work I had to complete alongside it and I was always crying from anxiety and lack of sleep. But even if it was a terrible experience, I gained a lot of things in the process. I gained a lot of true friends that I hope I can stay in touch with for the rest of my life, some amazing tutors/lecturers who I have grown to like and those who have supported me throughout the three years. I have learnt about who I am as a person as well as a student. I have learnt A LOT about media theory, politics, journalism, web design, the economy and basically all the things that relate to media and those that doesn’t. I have made some great memories with my family and the most important thing of all, I did it all on my own. I survived university and lived to tell the tale. I conquered mountains of essays and practical work, spoke in front of a lot of people when doing presentations and got through the three years with an excellent outcome. 

That is why as a way of marking the end of university and getting the results that I thought would have been impossible to get three years ago, I have printed all my first class essays to celebrate the end of a stressful yet gratifying chapter of my life. I want to look back on them one day and maybe show myself as well as my future children how I did what I and others thought would have been impossible for me to do. I am so incredibly proud of myself and now I have several pieces of evidence of the rewards you can get and the satisfying feeling you get when you know you got something better than you thought you would actually get! 

Licensed to Start Driving

I am terrified of driving, which isn’t a good opening line to a post about learning to drive a car. A lot of my friends have already started driving or currently in the middle of learning how to drive so I can confirm I am really late to the party. But even though I am terrified I know that driving is not only a great skill to have but is definitely useful for doing school rounds (my little sister starts nursery this September) as well as having a vehicle to use for work would be much better than taking the bus. I keep telling myself that I have made a lot of choices and decisions since finishing university and learning to drive needs to have a verdict now (or else I will never make my mind up and will forever be stuck taking the bus).  

So, I sucked it up and decided that I needed to start learning now. Well, actually that isn’t quite true. During the job hunting and job applications these past few months, I came across a placement for a nursery assistant across various nurseries around Cambridge and Suffolk and they had to do a background check on me and of course, a part of that is providing a sufficient amount of identity documents. They needed two types of documents to confirm my address and because I still live with my parents I didn’t have any form of bills except my bank statement and they advised me that they need me to apply for a provisional driving license so they can process my application as soon as possible. I promptly applied for one and it arrived a few days later and I took that as a sign that I need to start learning to drive. My family was very excited for me and encouraged me that this is DEFINITELY a sign that I need to start driving and my dad immediately said that I should go buy the theory book to start revising. There have also been some unconfirmed plans that my parents are going to buy me a small car that I can practice on (although since I haven’t started reading the theory book and haven’t booked my driving lessons yet, this “plan” hangs in the balance). 

So here I am writing this post with the theory book by my side, still terrified but have finally accepted that I need to do this because I need it in my life and that is a good reason why I need to learn how to drive. After talking with my parents, I have decided to drive an automatic (because my parents said “it is just like driving a bumper car” except I am not in a fair and if I do bump into someone I am sure saying sorry will not be enough), I will be hopefully doing a once a week for 2 hours kind of lesson and then my dad will also be teaching me how to behave properly when driving (he said that passing the practical test will be easy but combining it with how to behave when driving takes a lot of practice). I am honestly bricking it but I feel the right amount of ready to start learning. 

Please wish me luck and pray I make it through this unknown experience and hopefully soon I will be licensed to drive an automatic car on the road. 

One Month of Job Hunting

I can’t believe it has already been over a month since I submitted my dissertation, the month of May has ended and it is now June. That means I have been basically hunting for jobs for a month now. May has definitely been hectic and filled with stress and my right forefinger glued to the scroll down button as I skimmed passed hundreds and thousands of jobs on every single job websites you can think of. I feel like day after day my head would explode and sleep always won at the end as soon as my head hit the pillow. I wish I could say this journey had been fun so far but that would be lying.

At the start of the month, I was ready to jump into looking for work cause why waste time when there are plenty of opportunities available out there, right? I was so ready to go look for some work that will help me get ahead of everyone and gain some experience in an area where I hope to keep climbing. I wanted a job related to my degree, Media Studies, where I can feel that going to university and having £27,000 debt on my shoulders would pay off (and be paid off quickly). I was ready to go conquer the Media world like those beautiful people you see in the movies where they are so hyped about the next step of looking for work and they just get it like destiny made it that way. Unfortunately, sometimes reality isn’t like what you see in the movies and the world doesn’t want to co-operate with how you see your life playing out. There wasn’t much media related job in Cambridge and those that are available require previous experience (which I don’t have)and right now going off to London or some other place would be pointless since I don’t graduate until October. So what do you do when no jobs are available that suits your preferences? You go to the next related thing that will help you gain experience, Apprenticeships.

I applied for an apprenticeship before and I didn’t get that. So, I was not too sure if applying for more is a good idea. But it was worth a shot and it WILL help me gain training and make connections with more people in the industry so its a start. I applied for a lot of media-related apprentices in areas such as digital marketing and social media. I just wanted to find something to do which will help me gain money and just some experience in a workplace. I applied for five apprenticeships in total (so far) and received one phone call. I was so nervous getting a phone call as I hate talking to people on the phone but I did gather up the courage to phone them back (I missed it and it went to voicemail cause hungry lol) and they just asked me to send them an email about the modules I did at university. The email was sent off and I never received anything back from them which made me feel kinda sad. However, I knew there are other areas I can try going into even if this did end with a dead end.

One of those areas was doing an internship around Cambridge which was fairly difficult as there isn’t much of those here either but I knew no one will take me if it having experience that they are looking for. By this point in the job searching journey, I was feeling a little down that there wasn’t much happening and it is not happening as quick as I had anticipated. I was also at the point of doubt and frustration as the only option ultimately will be an internship in London as there are dozens there. But even then and right now, I feel with how the world is going I need to hold off going further away but if it comes to graduation and I am still jobless, going to do an internship is still on the cards. In the meantime, my mum has suggested I go down a different path and see how I do in another career which is childcare as my work experience was a Playgroup Assistant. Many people have told me that I do so good with children so I thought I’d try it and maybe this is the path I was destined to discover. So, I have put aside all the media stuff for now and I applied for non-qualified nursery jobs and other childcare jobs such as playworker around my local area and Cambridge. I did apply for other various jobs such as a data entry clerk and an office assistant but I was rejected. But despite the rejection, at the end of May, I have been in communication with an agency which supplies teaching assistant and nursery assistant roles in various schools around Cambridge and my application and details are currently under clearance. I also had an interview for a playworker role in a primary school in Cambridge and another playworker role application form was filled out for another school in my local area. Everything is in the balance right now and I will update you guys with more information if I am successful or not. (either way, I am getting practice in doing interviews, making and answering phone calls and completing application forms so it is still benefitting me).

A month of job hunting has just finished and with the summer just around the corner, more days of job hunting is still to come. It is a long journey but hopefully a worthwhile one and it is all part of the adventures I will need to discover as part of life. Wish me luck guys and let’s see where this adventure will take me.

Boys of the Past

I liked so many boys, I have lost count
Boys just kept on appearing, they are starting to mount
First, the boy who thought he was cool
But he turned out to be a stupid fool
Then there was the boy I fell in love with
Once I thought I needed him to live
He had brown eyes and loved me like no other
But he also hated my father, sister and mother
He turned ugly and he broke my heart
So we separated and fell apart
Then I liked a boy who loves to play
His guitar and just rock away
Followed by the boy who loves to give me a hug
He kept me warm and oh so snug
Then came the boy who called me ‘amigo’
He only liked me cause I gave him mentos
Then there was the boy who walked 15 miles
He was filled with lots of laughs and smiles
Then the boy who I sat next to in the most boring lesson
I never knew I liked him for any special reason
He just made me laugh and was genuinely funny
He was an over the top and very tall bunny
But none of them really worked out
Sometimes I wonder what it’s all about
I hope one day I find Mr Right
Who will let me dream well every night
When I find him, these boys will see
They are all losers cause they all lost me
They let go and moved on, they will never last
Because they are just the Boys of the Past!

Who will Win?

Two boys fighting with a gun
But who will win, which one?
It started one day for no reason
It happened in one particular season
It might have been autumn or winter
I remember my sister had a blister
These two boys are filled with surprise
Too bad they are also full of white lies
One was much taller than the other
Both equally love their mother
These two boys wants the same prize
To take the princess to Love Paradise
So they fought and fought and fought some more
Right now, they have the same damn score
The fair lady waits for her prince to come
And when he does, she’ll give him some
For now, she will just keep feeling lonely
Please hurry up, Mr One and Only!