One Month of Job Hunting

I can’t believe it has already been over a month since I submitted my dissertation, the month of May has ended and it is now June. That means I have been basically hunting for jobs for a month now. May has definitely been hectic and filled with stress and my right forefinger glued to the scroll down button as I skimmed passed hundreds and thousands of jobs on every single job websites you can think of. I feel like day after day my head would explode and sleep always won at the end as soon as my head hit the pillow. I wish I could say this journey had been fun so far but that would be lying.

At the start of the month, I was ready to jump into looking for work cause why waste time when there are plenty of opportunities available out there, right? I was so ready to go look for some work that will help me get ahead of everyone and gain some experience in an area where I hope to keep climbing. I wanted a job related to my degree, Media Studies, where I can feel that going to university and having ยฃ27,000 debt on my shoulders would pay off (and be paid off quickly). I was ready to go conquer the Media world like those beautiful people you see in the movies where they are so hyped about the next step of looking for work and they just get it like destiny made it that way. Unfortunately, sometimes reality isn’t like what you see in the movies and the world doesn’t want to co-operate with how you see your life playing out. There wasn’t much media related job in Cambridge and those that are available require previous experience (which I don’t have)and right now going off to London or some other place would be pointless since I don’t graduate until October. So what do you do when no jobs are available that suits your preferences? You go to the next related thing that will help you gain experience, Apprenticeships.

I applied for an apprenticeship before and I didn’t get that. So, I was not too sure if applying for more is a good idea. But it was worth a shot and it WILL help me gain training and make connections with more people in the industry so its a start. I applied for a lot of media-related apprentices in areas such as digital marketing and social media. I just wanted to find something to do which will help me gain money and just some experience in a workplace. I applied for five apprenticeships in total (so far) and received one phone call. I was so nervous getting a phone call as I hate talking to people on the phone but I did gather up the courage to phone them back (I missed it and it went to voicemail cause hungry lol) and they just asked me to send them an email about the modules I did at university. The email was sent off and I never received anything back from them which made me feel kinda sad. However, I knew there are other areas I can try going into even if this did end with a dead end.

One of those areas was doing an internship around Cambridge which was fairly difficult as there isn’t much of those here either but I knew no one will take me if it having experienceย that they are looking for. By this point in the job searching journey, I was feeling a little down that there wasn’t much happening and it is not happening as quick as I had anticipated. I was also at the point of doubt and frustration as the only option ultimately will be an internship in London as there are dozens there. But even then and right now, I feel with how the world is going I need to hold off going further away but if it comes to graduation and I am still jobless, going to do an internship is still on the cards. In the meantime, my mum has suggested I go down a different path and see how I do in another career which is childcare as my work experience was a Playgroup Assistant. Many people have told me that I do so good with children so I thought I’d try it and maybe this is the path I was destined to discover. So, I have put aside all the media stuff for now and I applied for non-qualified nursery jobs and other childcare jobs such as playworker around my local area and Cambridge. I did apply for other various jobs such as a data entry clerk and an office assistant but I was rejected. But despite the rejection, at the end of May, I have been in communication with an agency which supplies teaching assistant and nursery assistant roles in various schools around Cambridge and my application and details are currently under clearance. I also had an interview for a playworker role in a primary school in Cambridge and another playworker role application form was filled out for another school in my local area. Everything is in the balance right now and I will update you guys with more information if I am successful or not. (either way, I am getting practice in doing interviews, making and answering phone calls and completing application forms so it is still benefitting me).

A month of job hunting has just finished and with the summer just around the corner, more days of job hunting is still to come. It is a long journey but hopefully a worthwhile one and it is all part of the adventures I will need to discover as part of life. Wish me luck guys and let’s see where this adventure will take me.

Boys of the Past

I liked so many boys, I have lost count
Boys just kept on appearing, they are starting to mount
First, the boy who thought he was cool
But he turned out to be a stupid fool
Then there was the boy I fell in love with
Once I thought I needed him to live
He had brown eyes and loved me like no other
But he also hated my father, sister and mother
He turned ugly and he broke my heart
So we separated and fell apart
Then I liked a boy who loves to play
His guitar and just rock away
Followed by the boy who loves to give me a hug
He kept me warm and oh so snug
Then came the boy who called me ‘amigo’
He only liked me cause I gave him mentos
Then there was the boy who walked 15 miles
He was filled with lots of laughs and smiles
Then the boy who I sat next to in the most boring lesson
I never knew I liked him for any special reason
He just made me laugh and was genuinely funny
He was an over the top and very tall bunny
But none of them really worked out
Sometimes I wonder what it’s all about
I hope one day I find Mr Right
Who will let me dream well every night
When I find him, these boys will see
They are all losers cause they all lost me
They let go and moved on, they will never last
Because they are just the Boys of the Past!

Who will Win?

Two boys fighting with a gun
But who will win, which one?
It started one day for no reason
It happened in one particular season
It might have been autumn or winter
I remember my sister had a blister
These two boys are filled with surprise
Too bad they are also full of white lies
One was much taller than the other
Both equally love their mother
These two boys wants the same prize
To take the princess to Love Paradise
So they fought and fought and fought some more
Right now, they have the same damn score
The fair lady waits for her prince to come
And when he does, she’ll give him some
For now, she will just keep feeling lonely
Please hurry up, Mr One and Only!

Moving On

I have nothing to lose and more to gain
The time has come to stop the pain
The troubles are over and it’s going to stop
Time to climb and reach the mountain top
Just keep going cause you are gonna get there soon
Jump aboard and explore the planets, stars and moon
Travel the world and reach your goals
Complete my heart and reach my inner soul
I need to move on from the horrific past
Try to make the present last
Love me, my friends and family
Just relax and be problem free
Smile and laugh like before I met you
Achieve and Win, make my dreams come true
Starting right now, you are out of my life
You can no longer hurt me like a knife
I don’t need your hug or your kiss
We are over, you won’t be missed
I bid you farewell, you deadly stranger
Just stay away from me cause you’re the real danger.

It’s Over

You told me lies and useless words
You trapped my wings like a helpless bird
You looked at me as if you care
I wanted you to stop, just don’t you dare
But like always, you don’t listen to me
You walk, speak, taste and feel, but not see
See that you’re hurting my heart
That this relationship is tearing apart
You wanted me, you said you wanted me so bad
Thanks for making me lose the happiness and bring back the sad
We kissed and hugged and planned everything until we die
But instead, you left, just left me to cry
Why did I trust you when I knew you were wrong
Why did I give in, when I was starting to be strong
Why do I feel foolish, like it was my fault, my mistake
It was never me, just hold on and hit the brake
It wasn’t me that got my hopes up
It wasn’t my choice to carry on or stop
It wasn’t me that let go of the dart
It wasn’t me that broke my heart
It was you that made me cry
It was you who acted like the right guy
It was you, who tore me to pieces
It was you, tricking me with your hugs and kisses
You can’t fool me again, we are definitely through
Because you are not that guy before, I don’t love you!

Finding True Love

He looked at me for a minute or two
I’m obsessed with him but he hasn’t got a clue
I need him so badly, he needs to be mine
He is so cute and extremely fine
He just broke up with his leading lady
They went out now he’s gone crazy
to get her back in his arms
Needs to bring his cool and his charms
But really she doesn’t care one bit
She already has her eyes on a boy so fit
Why does he still run after this bitch?
He needs to be free from that wicked witch
Why can’t he see there are other girls here?
Right in front of him, oh so near
He doesn’t need her anymore
Time to open another door
But why can’t he see me?
Staring at him like a bee
There is still time for him and me to meet
Just need to stand and find our feet
Once we are finally together
Everything will be happily ever after.

Friend?

Friends? That’s what you said you want to be
You said you want to be friends with me
So, we’re cool now, is that right?
So, we’re okay, there’s no need to fight?
Good, I like how this sounds so far.
Hey, did you get a new car?
So, what do you want to talk about?
I’m sure you don’t want to go out
So, we’re amigos, pals, mates
I really want to go on a date
Wow! You walked away…great talk!
Can I have a ride? Oh never mind… I’ll walk
Hey, you said you’ll help me with my dance
I’d like to chat again when you have the chance
Not today? Well tomorrow maybe, just us together?
Oh, you weren’t listening, I’ll take that as never.
Hey, what’s going on? Oh, you’re with “your Queen”
Well just wanted to check, “How you been?”

This is getting stupid, when will it end?
I’m starting to think if you’re even my friend.