Interest in Pinterest

I used to have a Pinterest account for my A-Levels art class that we had for one of the modules but back then I wasn’t really into it. I just didn’t get the concept and the whole thing wasn’t really my thing. We used it for one of the modules that had to do with the human anatomy and so I used it to collect brain images and create boards about body types which then led to a psychological project about the human mind on body image. I tried to create some more random boards as a personal hobby but it didn’t stick and it was just time-consuming.

But now that I have more time on my hands and my sister said I should give it another go, I have decided to take up Pinteresting again lol. So far, there have been a lot of quotes collecting and a lot of Once Upon A Time pictures sourced (especially OutlawQueen). I don’t really know if I can carry on with it on a consistent basis but I am sure in between jobs and doing chores and when I am super bored I will be able to full through the Pinterest rabbit hole and probably never reappear again!

New Facebook Profile

Oh, I just went and created a new Facebook profile. I am not really sure why I did it but I am back on Facebook after a month. I think I needed to just have a break from it and get my life sorted in order to feel happy to be using Facebook again. If you didn’t get to read my post about leaving Facebook, I basically said that I haven’t really been feeling the Facebook vibe and I just felt that it was a distraction from a lot of things (like going to find a job) and would often result in me getting caught up on the never ending news feed of peoples’ lives that I shouldn’t care about but I do lol. Anyways, I decided I want back in but instead of continuing with my old Facebook account I wanted to start a new one because I just wanted to mark a new chapter in my life (which is finishing university and finding a job). 

I have begun taking down some pictures from my old account and deleting them (I downloaded them though so it’s okay) as well as taking care of my new account in terms of privacy settings and not sharing too much. I have just been enjoying staring at my news feed and not seeing anyone’s life but my own (but I hope a few people does find me so I can have a few friends lol). I’m feeling really positive right now and I hope this Facebook account makes me better and more wonderful memories than the previous one. 

….If not, I’m sure I can always de-activate it!

Facebook- Logging off

I have decided to log off my Facebook account. I feel that I need to take a break from it and just move away from Facebook for a while. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately and I just need to an escape away from it all. Earlier this year I did a Facebook Detox for Lent and honestly, after that experience, I felt so carefree and relieved that I’m not bombarded with articles and adverts I didn’t give a damn about or things which were making me just feel sad when it shouldn’t be. Facebook has given me a platform to express myself and share my life but right now I feel like I need to step away and have some self-reflection. I shared so many good memories on there as well as several bad ones but as years went by it has all become mediocre and I just feel negative towards it now. Signing out from Facebook, FB Messenger and deleting all the apps from my devices will hopefully help me find more time to have a long think and just give me some space.

Right now, I won’t be deactivating it or deleting it yet, just gonna log it off. I think this decision is the best for me and even if I am not on Facebook, I will still have Snapchat, Twitter and Instagram. So if you want to chat, call me up or some news appeared on Facebook that you think I need to know, I will still be on the other social media networks, just not Facebook. A part of me will miss Facebook but the majority of me will soon forget about it. This is a goodbye to Facebook for now and you never know I might decide to log back on just to see how everyone is doing or maybe even start a new account. Also,  if you end up reading this, please know that it is not directed at anyone or was due to anything major happening because there is not anything that has happened or anyone that has forced me to do this. This is all my personal decision and something I have been meaning to do for ages. 

I want to thank everyone for making the Facebook experience memorable and just being part of many of my memories so far. See you around everyone!

If you do want to contact me, here are all my other social media details:

Twitter: @GangstaNoob007
Instagram: @trishaanne96
Snapchat: doryknowwhoiam

Now its… Bye Facebook Bye!

Online Representation

Hey online world this is me.
Who I am do you really have to you see?
I would stare down this lens and just talk
Well why don’t we go for a imaginary walk?
The place that the camera will never see
A place known as my investigation territory
You want to know what goes
You see people can put on a front and play a role
I do it all the sometimes to gain control *
I can be that girl who smiles at the camera and acts all happy
Laugh and smile even through I’m grumpy
Even though I’m sad I just shrug and say ok
So they’d think I’m totes fine and they will just go away!
I’d shut the world out and go to the person I wanna be

That girl who is almost perfection, crafted to the tee
She’d have a stunning and made up face
Looking beautiful and elegant, full of grace
I would be a star in the worlds eyes
A boys dream girl, the winning prize

Or that smart girl who knows every answer
She can balance her studies and being a hard worker
She is always on top, she gets the first place trophy
She’s also an animal lover, charity volunteer and very holy

Or I could be the Harry Potter fanatic, a total obsession
Every Harry Potter merchandise in my possession
I’d end up married to Rupert Grint and have a cat called Otter
Maybe I’ll even get a tattoo on my back of Harry Potter

Or I could be that mean girl, scrolling and judging
You want me gone well darling I’m not budging.
Let me tell you what is wrong with you and your face
You are so ugly, you’re mother thinks you’re a disgrace
Girl no one likes you, haven’t you noticed everyone tweeting
Btw just to let you know that your so called bf is cheating

So you see I can be anyone. I wanna be behind the screen
Flicking through, deleting and editing footage that will never be seen
Backstage I rule the world cause no will know it’s me
Secrets, fears, emotion are locked with a key
But if you really want to know about the girl on the other side
She’s ready to show people who she is…. Nowhere else to hide

She’s the girl who smiles and laughs for no apart reason
She looks exactly the same every single day of every season
She should really focus on her education and getting a job
But she can’t find the time right now and sometimes a lazy flop
She’s never said a mean thing about anyone, online or for real
Well apart from time to time when she wants to express how she feels
So there you go, comment, subscribe and check out the description
Im going to sleep now, that was my online self representation

There are a lot of things you’d know from a person if you give them a chance
You don’t have to tell them to go edit them selves and turn up the ‘enhance’
Maybe if we stopped investigating a person from what we see in the screen
Anyway who would listen to a girl who looks at a twisted reflection?
People are so bended these days do they know their self representation?

Two Sides Of Me

Welcome to my World
Hey this is me | & I’m da person she really want 2 b
Ermmmm says who? | oh darling u do
I don’t think so, you’re mistaken| at least I hav an opinion & not fakin
I’m not fake, I just don’t like to say it out loud| well speak up & act like ur proud
I am proud thank you very much| not really u seem out of touch
Well tell me why are you better| ha! Jst take a look at ur sweater!

Online Trisha
Darling jst move ovr, make way 4 da Queen
Open ur eyes widr wher hav u been?
I’m da voice in ur head dat makes u insane
Likes 2 play now & again w/ ur little brain
I hav multiple charactrs diffrnt & bettr versions of u
So fierce, so loud, so funny & a guy’s dream com true
So while u scroll I’m silently judgin
No matter wat u do I’m not budgin

Well Why are you interfering with me| cuz dear I kno wat u really want 2 b
Well care to enlighten me some more| u desperately like 2 b da 1 people adore
That’s not bad, Can’t a girl want some love| yea & 2 get dat u hav 2 b abov
Above? what exactly are you implying?| oh ur naivety is somethin I’m not buyin

Real Trisha
Well let me tell you this I’m not always nice
I can be mean and that can come as a surprise
Don’t mess with me I like things just the way they are
Present time is where I’m happy not near not far
So just go away ,bite your tongue and zip your lips
By the way, I think your fake, Ms photoshopped hips
You may be queen of my head but you can’t rule me
I’m the real thing you’re a big headed wanna be

Now what to you say to that| brava dear turns out ur not so flat
Well now will you go away?| Sorry I’m not done 4 da day
What else do you wanna do?| make my dreams com true
Yea like what?| mov ovr & let me take dat!

Online Trisha
Let’s change ur look & make u pretty
Cut da desperation & dat stinking pity
Fix ur face & make u thinnr
U can bcom da all round winnr
Den we can chat up sevral guys on virtual worlds
Woe dem w/ ur looks & som flirty words
Den while he’s at work we can spy on ur ‘friends’
Laugh at deir mistakes & secretly poke fun at deir ‘trends’
U c u will always win as long as I’m in charge
Cuz I think bold bright & jst xtra large
Plus no 1 online will kno it’s u
& even if dey find out, wat r dey gonna do?
So darling jst admit dat I’m right
Spread ur wings & take flight
Like I said leave it all up 2 me
Right u ready… 123!

Don’t u look like a dream com true?| OMG I’m just like you!
Xactly. Excpt I’m da bettr twin| but I just can’t let you win
But darlin I already hav, game ovr| no it’s not better take cover

Real Trisha
You see you may judge and take a stand
But your thoughts don’t even reach my hand
Your mood is stored behind a filter
Huh? Hun, why do you look so bitter?
Your style and looks really highlights your physique
To bad it’s been done, turns out your not unique
Your insults are barely noticed, plus they are pretty old
Your opinions aren’t valid, dearie you’ve been told
From now on just stay in my head but stay cute
Keep babbling and mumbling, it’s okay you’re on mute
You think you’ve won well go look at you’r reflection
I hope you’re okay with this extra large rejection
Cause you’re behind a screen, just another online version
You’ve got to remember I’m the real person
Awwwwwww sorry… Gotta go… Please don’t shout
Not does it matter, see you soon, I’m….signing out!


This poem was inspired by a project I did for my first year at Uni where we had to create a form of self representation and I chose to create one for an online representation of the conflict decision to which side of you, you would like to portray to the online world. This was an early idea i had and it didn’t quite work out in the end but since I wrote the poem already I thought I might as well share it on here.

Found My Old Uni Blog

I just found my old university blog I did for one of my modules, which is probably where the inspiration to create a blog started. I just found it so weird to be reading something a first year university student created. The whole blog was for a module called ‘Networked Image’ where we explored various things related to blogs and activities we can do online.

Go check out Networked World (<—click the link) and find out about the module and what we did within that module as well as getting an insight on the first ever blog I created.

 

Online Abuse Experience

The internet is a dark place so why do we use it? The internet provides us with the means of communication and expression. A lot of people build relationships and friendships online, people are able to give and gain knowledge and we are constantly viewing cat videos. Being digital natives, we are embedded in our technologies than we have ever been before. However, the internet also holds a lot of darkness that most of us has probably never experienced and will never have to. I thought this too. No one on the internet can ever come and upset me or anyone I know because we haven’t done anything wrong. That was until yesterday. 

The day was nearly coming to an end. My sisters and I were in my room because we are all planning on doing homework together and just chilling out after a long day. My youngest sister and I were watching a video and my other sister was on her phone. Everything was fine until my other sister let out a sob. I asked her what’s the matter and she just handed me her phone and said ‘It’s not fair, Trisha!’. I looked at her phone which was open on her Instagram page at a recent drawing she posted. What I saw both enraged and disgusted me. A guy commented:

‘get drawing lessons from the make a wish foundation.’  

I cannot believe someone would ever say that to someone they know never mind some random stranger they come across online. I nearly cried as well at the fact that someone could be so mean and rude at someone who just wanted to share her love for movie characters and her passion for drawing. This guy had been posting on her Instagram a couple of weeks ago. He was at first just commenting how dreadful it was and my sister being a friendly person would comment on how she knows it isn’t perfect and how her drawings are all a process of self expression; nothing had to be perfect and she can always go back and improve on her next drawing. She showed me a couple of his comments and I told her that I’m sure he is just a one of troll and will go away soon. But he didn’t. He continued on for two weeks telling my sister that she should ‘go make a GoFundMe page so they can donate money to pay for your drawing lessons’ to comparing her with amputees. My sister was devastated and kept asking me why she is being made into a victim and asking me if she is doing something wrong by posting online. I didn’t know what to say. 

For the next hour, we all discussed it and my parents suggested that she just block him and even told her to send him some vulgar messages before blocking him. If I was a terrible person and wanted to stoop to his level, I would have sent him a long message filled with explicit language telling him that this is such a sad thing he is doing trying to put someone down just out of the blue and trying to knock someone’s confidence. He should be ashamed of himself and I pity him and his life.  But because I am not a confrontational person, I just held my sister’s phone and pressed Block

I really hope that he never finds my sister’s online accounts on other social media sites because what he is doing is such a harmful thing that could have really done a serious damage to my sister. I never thought that this would ever happen to someone I know so it really made me upset and angry. My sister is such a great person and sometimes I do tease her on her drawing skills but I would never think of comparing her with someone who has a disability or is on their death bed. If this person ever comes back and shows himself, especially when he abuses my sister again, I will be so angry and I’m afraid vulgar language will be used this time. But I pray this does not happen. 

My sister is doing fine now and she said that she will carry on drawing because it really is something she loves doing. We will put this guy and his comments behind us because he really isn’t worth our time. Please go support my sister and follow her on her on her Instagram page: fassyradavoy. She draws things related to the Marvel Universe including X-Men and Spiderman as well as other movies and original concepts.