Determined

So many things have changed I have lost count
So many things to do and it’s starting to mount
Changes have come and doors start to open
The time has passed and so much has happened
Life has been hectic I had to run to keep up
Gotta keep on running until I reach the top
Now I am here there is no chance of slowing
Too much perseverance gotta keep on going!

Never Mind

Many years have passed and words have been said
Yet here we are standing the test of time instead
We stand face to face, invisible to the eye and screen in hand
We talk and it comes back to the phrase: ‘I hope you understand’
But you know what, I don’t think I do and maybe after this, I never will
We have been moving so fast but Mate its time to stand still
I asked you a harmless question and you asked one back
I had an explanation then you exploded with an attack
You began with how you did me good through all these years
Oh is that why my heart is breaking and my eyes fill with tears?
You accuse me of things I never gave you or every did
Sometimes, you make me feel like the girl that God forbid
You continue that my lack of presence means I don’t care
Just because I didn’t take the train or the money, well that’s not fair!
You said I hold you at a distance even when you are close enough to touch
Sorry I wasted my tears for two days straight, just because I missed you so much
Then you end the conversation by saying  it’s nice for a couple to openly communicate
Four months have gone by and you choose to tell me this now, well Dude it’s too late
I am tired of disappointments and how we are running round and round
You keep on talking clever words but I no longer hear any sound
You missed so much whilst you were basking in your incredibility
You wanted me to be more visible in your life, how about invisibility?
Because I feel invisible and all I asked was a tag or a small post
I didn’t ask you for money or a train ticket, I’m so glad this ends with almost
I want to wish you good luck in your future and I’ll bow out and say farewell
If you had only listened, there are so many news I still had to say and tell
But I guess you’ll never know that I was about to start a job, actually two
If you could have only waited, I would be now planning my way to you
I never thought I would be the one to end it, I was the one who walked away
I have a feeling I will remember that rainy night and the following sunny day
And the saddest thing is that you made me believe that we are intertwined
But when I woke up, my heart felt lighter and my brain shrugged: “Never mind”.

Clearing My Emails

Nothing feels so good when you are deleting a lot of spam emails and being able to scroll down to the bottom at a blink of an eye and right back to the top again. I thought now that university is over I need to do some clearing up in all my email inboxes as they are filled with so much junk that it is about time I let it breathe. There are also a lot of emails which I have been meaning to delete but just ended up forgetting about them lol. But now, I have been using my computer a lot, I thought it is about time that I cleared out some stuff I no longer need to make space for more emails from work and bills and things that “grown-ups” have to sort out and pay for.

Wish me luck! 

Interest in Pinterest

I used to have a Pinterest account for my A-Levels art class that we had for one of the modules but back then I wasn’t really into it. I just didn’t get the concept and the whole thing wasn’t really my thing. We used it for one of the modules that had to do with the human anatomy and so I used it to collect brain images and create boards about body types which then led to a psychological project about the human mind on body image. I tried to create some more random boards as a personal hobby but it didn’t stick and it was just time-consuming.

But now that I have more time on my hands and my sister said I should give it another go, I have decided to take up Pinteresting again lol. So far, there have been a lot of quotes collecting and a lot of Once Upon A Time pictures sourced (especially OutlawQueen). I don’t really know if I can carry on with it on a consistent basis but I am sure in between jobs and doing chores and when I am super bored I will be able to full through the Pinterest rabbit hole and probably never reappear again!

Finding Time For Theory

I have been so busy with finding a job and sorting out appointments that I need to attend that I haven’t had time to read my theory test book. That book has been sitting on my shelf since the end of the start of June and so far I have only read a couple of pages. (the introduction lol) I feel like every time I try and read it my brain goes blank and my heart sinks. Maybe a part of me still doesn’t want to drive and is keeping me from even flicking through the book. I have been taking some practice ones on the internet and so far I have been failing most of them so that I have been sort of discouraged. But at least I have been getting some practice in rather than procrastinating (despite failing free tests lol)

I will get there in the end but right now, I need to focus on getting everything else sorted out in terms of work and teaching my sister how to toilet train (she recently passed the potty test). But after July, I am hoping to book some lessons this summer just so I can make a start on it.

Wish me Luck!

Too Much Hair

I cannot believe I am saying this, but I really want to cut my hair. I don’t normally want to cut my hair because I prefer it long and it gives me a lot of ways to style it and make it (somewhat) pretty. But since the hot weather has arrived (well it comes and goes but summer is definitely on its way), I have been running errands from going to job interviews and getting the house cleaned, it has been really getting in the way (and all over the floor) and I just feel like it is time to chop it off.

This past month of looking for jobs and getting my results feels like the end and the start of something new, so it is natural to feel the need to want something difference or some sort of change. I feel like I have overcome a lot of things, not just this past month but for the last three years and definitely having a haircut would be another good way to mark the achievements I have gain and a nod to a more fresher and brand new chapter in my life. 

Farewell Long Hair, we shall meet again one day but right now make way for a new (shorter) hair-do! 

Interview Clues

I am not an expert at interviews and to be honest if you are, you definitely have been to a lot in your life so far or you are just perfect. But since I have been to a few this last month I wanted to give my advice on how I dealt with my interviews and my top ten steps to getting some clues on the topic of interviews.


1. Research the Company
This is the first step that always comes up when I was searching for advice on how to deal with interviews. You need to go and research the company and just get some information from their website and look at the list of achievements they have accomplished as well as the future plans they have. This is not only beneficial for the person that will interview you in terms of finding out if you did some preparation before the interview but also a benefit for you. By researching the company’s policies and values, you are able to show the interviewer that you want to be part of their organisation as well as a deciding factor on whether their values will also meet your own.

2. Look at the job description
I know it could be boring to keep looking back at the job description especially since you probably spent a good long two days staring at it when completing your written application but I’m sure that looking at it some more will prepare you for the verbal interview. I spent a long time looking at it and breaking it down to the different sections they might test me on. I then proceeded to create an answer to each of the things they are looking for (including an example). This will prepare you with some answers to say during the interview, which I found really useful as I often become flustered and draw a blank. But having some answers ready to talk about it will help you create somewhat fluent sentences.

3. Look up possible interview questions
I found that looking up all the interview questions both general and specific will help you with creating effective answers ready for the interview. I spent a lot of time searching for all the possible questions they could ask me and writing answers for each of them. No one likes being interviewed and not knowing what to say is something I worried about especially after my first interview. I kept pausing and hesitating and biting the side of my mouth because I felt my answers weren’t strong enough (and tbh I just made it up on the spot), so having an answer ready to any interview question is a massive plus and will prevent any further stress to your interview day.

4.Pick a good outfit to wear
Nothing says I am ready than a polished outfit. Go and pick out a good outfit to wear that is well presentable and neat. You have just been invited for an interview and been researching so many questions and staring at your computer screen for two days straight. You need a break and what can be better than treating yourself to a shopping trip to buy some formal trousers or a nice blazer or even if you are really bad at timing and very last minute, go raid your closet and pick out all the pieces of clothing that are appropriate for an interview. If you feel good, then chances are you will feel ready (and a little gangster-may-care) for your interview.

5. Print out and folder ALL documents
I know printing can be difficult and time-consuming but hey making an extra effort to print out all the required documents to an interview which you could end up having is definitely worth it. Make sure you print out your CV, find your National Insurance paper, dig out your passport, birth certificate and even print out your application. Even if you think you might not need it, it might still help you in terms of revising over things you have previously said and showing your future employer that you can the right candidate they should be hiring. (plus it will make you look professional and organised if you carry a folder in lol). 

6. Plan your route
You need to plan your route and find out how you will get there at least a couple of days before your interview. Since I am not driving yet, I had to use the bus, so I needed to make sure that I withdrew money for bus fare and found out the right time to leave the house to get the right bus. If you are going to take a car, make sure you know if parking is available where you are going as well as any delays happening on the roads. This also goes for if you need to still walk further to arrive in the right room or department. The important thing is not to be late cause if you are late then it will make the interviewer question your punctuality.

7.More Research. 
Keep researching about the company and things they have done in the past and something you can relate to. Think of more examples that you can bring up when they ask you questions (this is really important if you haven’t had much experience like me). Look at reviews on the company and search on the internet for forums where people were interviewed for a similar position to yours. Look up more advice that other people have to calm your nerves or make you stand out (there are dozens on the internet that can help you, so just keep researching). This will also help when your mind goes blank to insert things you have learnt just to buy time to think of an answer. 

8. Get advice on the right interview etiquette
If you have to ask your family, your parents, grandparents, aunts, older siblings or join a forum, you need to know the proper etiquette and mannerisms interviewers are looking for. These are things such as making eye contact, staying polite and respectful throughout, displaying a sense of humour without laughing or trying to joke with the interviewer. To be honest, this step is just common sense but is still an important one to keep in mind and remember that how you behave with your family or friends is not the same way you should treat a random stranger that is interviewing you and will potentially give you a job.

9. Prepare everything the night before
This is a must if you know you are a last minute person and time-management isn’t your best skill. Go and prepare everything you need for the following day so to avoid making yourself panic more than you need to. Get all your documents printed and placed in a folder and even inside your bag. Put your keys, wallet and other essentials inside the bag as well. Iron and place your outfit on the closet handle ready for the following day. Make sure you brush through your hair, cut your nails and also shave any hair which they might notice (especially if you are a girl and will be wearing a dress, shave your armpits and legs and maybe your arms – if it is really hairy). 

10. Get a good night sleep
Finally, sleep. You need a great sleep ready for tomorrow. By getting a great sleep you will feel refreshed and will be as ready as you could ever be to go ace that interview. Just keep breathing and don’t panic. When you get there, go straight to the bathroom if you have time, so you can fix yourself and look proud in that mirror. Then go find the room (make sure you arrive at least 10 minutes before the time allotted) and knock on that door of opportunity. You can do this!


If you have any more advice for interviews or past experiences you would like to share, leave a comment in the section below.