Sorry I haven’t posted for ages since I have been swamped with events and work and life in general. I will keep this short since I want to plan ahead some ideas of what to write about. I have been busying working at my new workplace which I have been enjoying so far. I am looking for another work since it is just a part-time job but I will see how this one goes in the meantime. I have my graduation coming up and so I have been getting ready for that (I still have a few things still missing but apart from that I think I’m ready). My mom recently had her birthday and we had a lovely time spending some quality family time. I wanted to post on here but she wanted to keep it hush-hush lol. I am enjoying being single and focusing on me for a little while. Everyone is doing good and I am slowly figuring out this being a grown-up thing.
Anyways, I promise I will make a much better effort on posting on this blog and writing more about my life and every undiscovered adventure I will be going to and hopefully discovering.
Peace and Love xo
So many things have changed I have lost count
So many things to do and it’s starting to mount
Changes have come and doors start to open
The time has passed and so much has happened
Life has been hectic I had to run to keep up
Gotta keep on running until I reach the top
Now I am here there is no chance of slowing
Too much perseverance gotta keep on going!
Many years have passed and words have been said
Yet here we are standing the test of time instead
We stand face to face, invisible to the eye and screen in hand
We talk and it comes back to the phrase: ‘I hope you understand’
But you know what, I don’t think I do and maybe after this, I never will
We have been moving so fast but Mate its time to stand still
I asked you a harmless question and you asked one back
I had an explanation then you exploded with an attack
You began with how you did me good through all these years
Oh is that why my heart is breaking and my eyes fill with tears?
You accuse me of things I never gave you or every did
Sometimes, you make me feel like the girl that God forbid
You continue that my lack of presence means I don’t care
Just because I didn’t take the train or the money, well that’s not fair!
You said I hold you at a distance even when you are close enough to touch
Sorry I wasted my tears for two days straight, just because I missed you so much
Then you end the conversation by saying it’s nice for a couple to openly communicate
Four months have gone by and you choose to tell me this now, well Dude it’s too late
I am tired of disappointments and how we are running round and round
You keep on talking clever words but I no longer hear any sound
You missed so much whilst you were basking in your incredibility
You wanted me to be more visible in your life, how about invisibility?
Because I feel invisible and all I asked was a tag or a small post
I didn’t ask you for money or a train ticket, I’m so glad this ends with almost
I want to wish you good luck in your future and I’ll bow out and say farewell
If you had only listened, there are so many news I still had to say and tell
But I guess you’ll never know that I was about to start a job, actually two
If you could have only waited, I would be now planning my way to you
I never thought I would be the one to end it, I was the one who walked away
I have a feeling I will remember that rainy night and the following sunny day
And the saddest thing is that you made me believe that we are intertwined
But when I woke up, my heart felt lighter and my brain shrugged: “Never mind”.
Nothing feels so good when you are deleting a lot of spam emails and being able to scroll down to the bottom at a blink of an eye and right back to the top again. I thought now that university is over I need to do some clearing up in all my email inboxes as they are filled with so much junk that it is about time I let it breathe. There are also a lot of emails which I have been meaning to delete but just ended up forgetting about them lol. But now, I have been using my computer a lot, I thought it is about time that I cleared out some stuff I no longer need to make space for more emails from work and bills and things that “grown-ups” have to sort out and pay for.
Wish me luck!
I used to have a Pinterest account for my A-Levels art class that we had for one of the modules but back then I wasn’t really into it. I just didn’t get the concept and the whole thing wasn’t really my thing. We used it for one of the modules that had to do with the human anatomy and so I used it to collect brain images and create boards about body types which then led to a psychological project about the human mind on body image. I tried to create some more random boards as a personal hobby but it didn’t stick and it was just time-consuming.
But now that I have more time on my hands and my sister said I should give it another go, I have decided to take up Pinteresting again lol. So far, there have been a lot of quotes collecting and a lot of Once Upon A Time pictures sourced (especially OutlawQueen). I don’t really know if I can carry on with it on a consistent basis but I am sure in between jobs and doing chores and when I am super bored I will be able to full through the Pinterest rabbit hole and probably never reappear again!
I have been so busy with finding a job and sorting out appointments that I need to attend that I haven’t had time to read my theory test book. That book has been sitting on my shelf since the end of the start of June and so far I have only read a couple of pages. (the introduction lol) I feel like every time I try and read it my brain goes blank and my heart sinks. Maybe a part of me still doesn’t want to drive and is keeping me from even flicking through the book. I have been taking some practice ones on the internet and so far I have been failing most of them so that I have been sort of discouraged. But at least I have been getting some practice in rather than procrastinating (despite failing free tests lol)
I will get there in the end but right now, I need to focus on getting everything else sorted out in terms of work and teaching my sister how to toilet train (she recently passed the potty test). But after July, I am hoping to book some lessons this summer just so I can make a start on it.
Wish me Luck!
I cannot believe I am saying this, but I really want to cut my hair. I don’t normally want to cut my hair because I prefer it long and it gives me a lot of ways to style it and make it (somewhat) pretty. But since the hot weather has arrived (well it comes and goes but summer is definitely on its way), I have been running errands from going to job interviews and getting the house cleaned, it has been really getting in the way (and all over the floor) and I just feel like it is time to chop it off.
This past month of looking for jobs and getting my results feels like the end and the start of something new, so it is natural to feel the need to want something difference or some sort of change. I feel like I have overcome a lot of things, not just this past month but for the last three years and definitely having a haircut would be another good way to mark the achievements I have gain and a nod to a more fresher and brand new chapter in my life.
Farewell Long Hair, we shall meet again one day but right now make way for a new (shorter) hair-do!